I feel anxious and excited and weird but good.

I miss sunshine and summer ( Read more... )

Right now I'm really not in a good place. Pretty much everything I do just keeps blowing up in my face. And the world keeps trying to tell me that my best is not good enough ( Read more... )

So one of my roommates didn't come back this semester and the other one moved into her friends room down the hall yesterday and now I have my own room which is fucking awesome. I never realized how much I valued alone time until I moved here where I had absolutely no time to myself where I could just chill the fuck out. Now I'm free to play music ( Read more... )

To Do List:
-Get my ukulele fixed
-Go shopping
-Hang out with all the people I havn't seen.
-Go to the Academy of Sciences
-BE HAPPY!

Whenever I listen to Neighborhood #1 by Arcade Fire I remember being 15 and walking in the rain with Ramona. And specifically I remember that one time that we tried to go Allio's play but it was sold out by the time we got there and so we went george's house instead and then went to Naan and curry by there with Jack...Now this might not have all ( Read more... )

This is one of the strangest dreams that I've remembered in a while ( Read more... )

So, I'm back at school again. Thanksgiving weekend was a non-stop party. I had sooooo much fun. It's weird. as soon as I got back to SF I felt like I had never even left. I just slid right back into everything with such ease. And now that I'm back here it feels kinda weird cause my mind and my heart are still back in the city and so I can't really ( Read more... )

I can feel myself getting more and more fed up with the girls I hang out with. I've started pretty much only hanging out with the guys cause the girls are just pissin me off. On the note of girls being annoying, since my roommates are moving out I think I might have to get new roomates and I would much rather have someone I know move in than ( Read more... )

I'm seriously getting fed up. I can't fucking defend myself about the same shit every single day. It's fucking ridiculous. I feel like I can't breathe sometimes in an entirely literal sense. My heart starts thumping and I just feel like screaming and tearing out my hair. I'm 18 years old. I'm in college. I shouldn't be doing this. It's retarded and ( Read more... )