Le Sigh
Its just really frustrating and rather depressing to go on facebook. Only because I see my friends doing extraordinary things. Like viewing fireworks along the night skyscape of NYC or the sun rising in peru, the mist on the hills in australia. England, China, Czech, Italy, Spain, France, Hawaii, and countless other places. And I'm stuck at home going to school and working at Macy's. I hate it. I don't have a college experience because I'm living at home 50 miles from school. So I feel lazy like I'm not doing anything with my life because I work at a department store in the mall and I sit at home doing my online classes and playing games online. I want to be travelling the world, or at least living on my own, even if it is only a dorm. I feel like Im in a rut, which I know isnt true because after this semester and next I'll have a 4 year degree, already! I can get a career with a salary not hourly wage. Maybe move out, hopefully with Jorge, that also depends on his schoolling.
I just want to start my life. On my own, dependent of my parents I mean. I wast ever expecting to live here this long. I'll be 21 soon and I still live at home. I know thats acceptable in this economy but Im normally good at working things out, or lucky enough.
What I want. I want a career that I love, that is always pushing me, where I'm constantly learning things. I want privacy, security and comfort. I want to be able to do what I want with Jorge when I want, like cute things that normal young couples get to do. Sleep together, cook together, watch tv and cuddle together, and all those other things.
Sigh...idk
I just want to start my life. On my own, dependent of my parents I mean. I wast ever expecting to live here this long. I'll be 21 soon and I still live at home. I know thats acceptable in this economy but Im normally good at working things out, or lucky enough.
What I want. I want a career that I love, that is always pushing me, where I'm constantly learning things. I want privacy, security and comfort. I want to be able to do what I want with Jorge when I want, like cute things that normal young couples get to do. Sleep together, cook together, watch tv and cuddle together, and all those other things.
Sigh...idk