In my room
I have spent most of the time in my little room, listening to Hellsongs or watching Stargate since Chase left.
It is small, and it is not perfect at all, but it is the closest thing to a home I have right now.
I feel very lonely, actually. The only thing keeping me going is my ability for abstraction. I can look at things rationally and stripped from emotions, but I am a living, breathing, feeling human being, so sometimes my emotions take over.
Then I lay in bed and feel the empty space next to me.
It is amazing what a big hole Chase left here. How big of a presence he is when he is there. How warm he is. So warm.
It is small, and it is not perfect at all, but it is the closest thing to a home I have right now.
I feel very lonely, actually. The only thing keeping me going is my ability for abstraction. I can look at things rationally and stripped from emotions, but I am a living, breathing, feeling human being, so sometimes my emotions take over.
Then I lay in bed and feel the empty space next to me.
It is amazing what a big hole Chase left here. How big of a presence he is when he is there. How warm he is. So warm.