Yes.
So I've become addicted to writing in this livejournal thing.
I had a good day...better than yesterday.
I hate the way I trip off of EVERYTHING.
I analyze everything to death. I guess it's to be expected. My college career thus far has been dependent on my ability to analyze the fuck out of any and every detail presented to my twenty-one year old brain.
I try to analyze things from a place of wisdom but what it comes down to is...I'm young and inexperienced in life.
All I know is what I don't want to become. I see certain people, who shall remain nameless, and think "Wow. I don't want be be where that person is when I'm twenty-four, twenty-six, twenty-eight..." I just need to NOT DO what I see those people doing and I should be fine. Right?
It's just...all my life I've played it safe--done exactly what I should be doing. I'm just afraid, and this fear is magnified by the fact that I'm graduating soon, that I'm going to end up where everyone else is despite the fact that I took the harder, less FUN path...and I won't have the stories about how I was called fingercuffs in college. Hehe. That's gross.
I've noticed that things that people advise me against seem to excite me in ways that they wouldn't have in the past.
Well, whatever. I need to be intimate with someone...maybe not need but want. I miss sext. ;)
Argh! Project Runway is my favorite show, today's episode is over. NOW...I go read.
BYE!
I had a good day...better than yesterday.
I hate the way I trip off of EVERYTHING.
I analyze everything to death. I guess it's to be expected. My college career thus far has been dependent on my ability to analyze the fuck out of any and every detail presented to my twenty-one year old brain.
I try to analyze things from a place of wisdom but what it comes down to is...I'm young and inexperienced in life.
All I know is what I don't want to become. I see certain people, who shall remain nameless, and think "Wow. I don't want be be where that person is when I'm twenty-four, twenty-six, twenty-eight..." I just need to NOT DO what I see those people doing and I should be fine. Right?
It's just...all my life I've played it safe--done exactly what I should be doing. I'm just afraid, and this fear is magnified by the fact that I'm graduating soon, that I'm going to end up where everyone else is despite the fact that I took the harder, less FUN path...and I won't have the stories about how I was called fingercuffs in college. Hehe. That's gross.
I've noticed that things that people advise me against seem to excite me in ways that they wouldn't have in the past.
Well, whatever. I need to be intimate with someone...maybe not need but want. I miss sext. ;)
Argh! Project Runway is my favorite show, today's episode is over. NOW...I go read.
BYE!