Marcella, Jim, Dave, Dane, Sarah, etc. Sittin' In A Tree...
Okay so. I was thinking about what happened with Josh that night that we met up reccently...I couldn't be more disgusted with myself about that. When I think about it I want to vomit.
I think that the more I feel accomplished with things in my life that more I feel like all that bullshit that I do out of either boredom or self-esteem deficiencies is just repulsive..."or I just really used to love him." No, Fiona, that's NOT it.
I have no connections to any boys. When I don't have any strong emotional attachments to any particular men in my life I tend to crush hard on guys that really don't deserve it. Luckily, these crushes are fleeting.
It was ODD what happened with Jerry. Odd to say the least. I really don't feel like I can comment on that one at this moment. Sooo, I won't.
I love Marlon and Jessica. I love Carols. I love Marcella, except the part about her cancelling on me for tonight. I love Pany, I felt bad that I didn't hang out with her more that night that she showed up. I'm not digging Brian so much. He bores me. He's good for calling when I'm depressed and need someone to talk to, but he just doesn't have many flaws--hence not much personality. I like my friends with some gusto. He just doesn't have it for me anymore. I feel bad saying this 'cause he's such a nice, kind person. I'm gonna suffer for these comments...but I digress.
Sooooo, yeah.
More later. I gotta sleeeep.
I think that the more I feel accomplished with things in my life that more I feel like all that bullshit that I do out of either boredom or self-esteem deficiencies is just repulsive..."or I just really used to love him." No, Fiona, that's NOT it.
I have no connections to any boys. When I don't have any strong emotional attachments to any particular men in my life I tend to crush hard on guys that really don't deserve it. Luckily, these crushes are fleeting.
It was ODD what happened with Jerry. Odd to say the least. I really don't feel like I can comment on that one at this moment. Sooo, I won't.
I love Marlon and Jessica. I love Carols. I love Marcella, except the part about her cancelling on me for tonight. I love Pany, I felt bad that I didn't hang out with her more that night that she showed up. I'm not digging Brian so much. He bores me. He's good for calling when I'm depressed and need someone to talk to, but he just doesn't have many flaws--hence not much personality. I like my friends with some gusto. He just doesn't have it for me anymore. I feel bad saying this 'cause he's such a nice, kind person. I'm gonna suffer for these comments...but I digress.
Sooooo, yeah.
More later. I gotta sleeeep.