Last will and testament...ok maybe not
I woke up yesterday with that same feeling, "Oh crap will Monday be a green day or a white day?" Then I remembered that classes had officially ended for us. I was ecstatic because finally, I would not have to hate one day more than the other.
It seems that these last few weeks have been filled with parties, comradery, relatives, expenses, and fun. (of course.) Luckily there should be at least another week or two of it, which means that I don't have to give it up and go into shock. In other news I've finally connected to my senior class, too little too late it seems, but I guess it's better to end the year on an upbeat as I started it feeling kind of down. At senior banquet, everyone chose that moment to spend with their friends. We however, knew that we wouldn't have to say our last goodbyes.
This morning I woke up thinking, "Katie is really going to leave." Not that I will never see her again seeing as how we are related now, but I just felt a pang of loneliness for her. She will be living in one of the most beautiful places in the world, and I hope that she won't feel too isolated to enjoy it. Now more than ever I know I must keep close in contact.
Luckily because of Katie, I know I will see Cristi too in the years to come. The witty comments and laughter do not have to end. I still hope that she will be able to go to school and be successful in life.
Erin, Alicia, and I will all be in the same state next year, maybe not much more than half an hour apart. School will be the number one priority, but I know that phone calls and holiday shopping trips are more than just possibilities. I'm hoping that college straightens me out, or at least that I'll get used to feeling tired so I won't be bitchy all the time. I also hope that as we get older and are forced to calm down a little, that we remain the same good people. Sorry for shaking the tent you guys!
Now as for friends I may have lost, (one in particular who probably won't see this), the tensions there were a result of our changes. The round peg had become square and just wouln't fit into the same hole anymore. I'm obviously not angry anymore, and I don't know about you but God has certainly punished me enough for my actions. I hope you find yourself.
Jeremy don't think for a second that I'm leaving you out of this. I wish so much now that I could have been much better than I was; I shouldn't have been so afraid of what my parents may have thought (their prude guidelines and crap) and that kept me from being more relaxed and open. At first I did the retarded thing and blamed it on you when it was really my fault. Without saying too much more, I thought that I didn't miss you but that was a lie. I wish you luck in your last year of high school and in life as well.
To my little tigers I hope that you will stay strong and laugh even when others think it's inappropriate. Looking back at our pics I remembered all the fun times even though there were crappy meets and 5 AM wake up calls. Continue to have fun and just remember, "Hey it's better than being at school right now."
So now it's going to be a workity-work-work summer. I leave high school to go back to preschool and then leave there to go to college. How messed up is that? But I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't love it. Stay away from the booze and don't use last year's suncreen (or No-Ad), if you want to avoid being caught by lobster boats.
P.S. Kelly Welch rocks.