i wish i could be his creator. to be the light in his eyes.
school is OUT. i am so happy cause i know that i never have to see junior year again. its just gonna get harder. but its gonna get more fun at the same time.
i am frustrated. very frustrated and angry and instead of just being angry like a normal person im extremely sad. and it doesn't help that im leaving for a month and i will have no control what so ever over the situation. its spinning out of control and i have no grasp on anything. its one of the only times where i want someone to just vanish. just leave.
youre messing everything up.
for the first time i have figured out exactly what i want and of course i cant have it. i waited too long. held back. and it hurt me like i knew it would. take some advice: let yourself go. do what you feel. you wont have regrets. maybe some.
regrets. they bite me in the ass too often.
feeling hopeless. helpless. ____less
katie