i sleep to dream about him

[zucchinidapiper]

i wish i could be certain things to certain people. i want to mean something to someone but it never ends up that way. im always unsatisfied. i started this week excited and its going the complete wrong direction. i really just want to be that person to you. or you. or someone else. but im not. never will be. and then i fuck up. i always fuck up and it puts me in check yet i always slip back into old habits.

my brain is swimming.

headache.

katie