depressed
Good grief. I haven't updated in forever.
What have I been up to? Let's see....
I spent Valentine's Day installing recessed lighting in the living room. It looks great. Alas, Zoodada hasn't wired it yet (he spent Valentine's Day working on a different project) so we can't see how well the room is let, but hey. It can look great in complete darkness. This may not sound romantic, but anything that gets done on the house is a wonderful gift to me. Oh, and did I mention that Zoodada has wanted recessed lighting in the living room for 5+ years?
I am trying not to feel hopelessly mediocre. If I were really good everyone would accept me to their grad program. If I were really bad, they'd just outright reject me. In the mean time, here I sit, waiting to hear from 8 programs. Most of these programs are admitting people--I've heard of people getting into at least 4 of the 8 schools. But they're not admitting me.
I'm trying to focus on the positive, but not succeeding very well. I am arranging a visit to the one school which did accept me (yes, they're going to pay) and trying to work out logistics of the move.
But that doesn't change the fact that I am feeling depressed--not just mediocre, but out of control of my whole life. I'm having trouble getting tasks done that really need doing. *sigh*
What have I been up to? Let's see....
I spent Valentine's Day installing recessed lighting in the living room. It looks great. Alas, Zoodada hasn't wired it yet (he spent Valentine's Day working on a different project) so we can't see how well the room is let, but hey. It can look great in complete darkness. This may not sound romantic, but anything that gets done on the house is a wonderful gift to me. Oh, and did I mention that Zoodada has wanted recessed lighting in the living room for 5+ years?
I am trying not to feel hopelessly mediocre. If I were really good everyone would accept me to their grad program. If I were really bad, they'd just outright reject me. In the mean time, here I sit, waiting to hear from 8 programs. Most of these programs are admitting people--I've heard of people getting into at least 4 of the 8 schools. But they're not admitting me.
I'm trying to focus on the positive, but not succeeding very well. I am arranging a visit to the one school which did accept me (yes, they're going to pay) and trying to work out logistics of the move.
But that doesn't change the fact that I am feeling depressed--not just mediocre, but out of control of my whole life. I'm having trouble getting tasks done that really need doing. *sigh*