It drives me crazy mad
i don't understand it, why does my heart sink and my stomach drop when i see her or more especially when i see them together. when i think of them being friends i don't mind, i want them to be. Mark and i have stayed good friends so why can't they. but as soon as he talks about it or i see them, her i can't but feel this why. it is a curl up in your bed for the rest of the day feel and i don't know why.
perhaps it is because of all the shitty things that have happened between her and i. i would like to forget them but they are stuck in my mind. they made me feel like shit and are the hardest blow to my self esteem. not even sure why that is. i guess b/c it is matters of the heart.
whatever the reason i want the feeling to go away because i want them to be friends. and i know they will be no matter how i feel. i also don't want to be the girlfriend who says who and when he can hang out with.
this one i many things i need to change. but i don't know how to do that.
perhaps it is because of all the shitty things that have happened between her and i. i would like to forget them but they are stuck in my mind. they made me feel like shit and are the hardest blow to my self esteem. not even sure why that is. i guess b/c it is matters of the heart.
whatever the reason i want the feeling to go away because i want them to be friends. and i know they will be no matter how i feel. i also don't want to be the girlfriend who says who and when he can hang out with.
this one i many things i need to change. but i don't know how to do that.