Where did the sky run off to?
So, as it all comes down to the nitty griddy, I feel like I need a lot of work. Not on anything else but my mind and the way I think. This life, this culture, this place we all deal with is slowly rotting away and I am allowing myself to rot with it. As a human with feelings, emotions, and personal traits, I must feel because it is natural. We are all the same, some different than others, but the same none the less. Why should I condone myself to only what the way of life offers? Do we really all want to be exactly the same?
As some may call it slave to the masses, we fall short sometimes to what others say because they follow what the world tells us, but whose to say it is the best or most healthy? Should I concern myself with such petty problems as personal beauty and appearance? The world is unkind, but not so shallow that it demands such pointless efforts to control humans to such levels of insecurity and fear. The weak grasp onto a notion in order to get by with their issues instead of facing the problem face to face.
I feel I have fallen short and let those insignificant problems grab ahold of me and let me fall, which I will not for much longer. I feel that for as far as I have come I shouldn't let such a petty trait pull me into such a rut. It's not only that but the things that others say and do as well, but I was good at letting it go, letting it be just another grain of salt in the sands of life. I let what I feel I been lacking in my life control the best of me and make me feel that I am not capable of living in such a world as this. The way I want to live some have said is impossible or lonely, maybe even treacherous because many people will reject the kind of person I may become. That being said, it comes down to the point that every person must face sometime in their life, does it really matter what they think? Does their personal view on what I do with myself even bother or effect them if it has nothing to do with them? Have they become a slave as well and follow the rules the world has set because they are scared of the unknown?
I like to think that if my life is this only time I can live, I will take my chances and do what I feel is right and what will make me happy because life isn't going to give you something on a silver platter. Sitting around waiting for what the world tells you is suppose to come is a waste of time. Break the chains, break the shekels that hold you down and walk your own path. If there is anything I have learned through the hardships I have dealt with and watching other people who wait and make themself suffer for an answer that will never come, it is this: you have to be you no matter what others say. Even if your hated, even if your looked down on, even if you never find love, even if you can't do what you want to do, even if you are alone: it's the brave who break free and do what no other person is willing to do. You can't lose what you don't have and you can't gain anything if you don't try. People are scared of those type of people and reject them because they are rare and have put themself in an unsafe domain.
I am going to be that person no matter what. Oh yea, brownie points. :) Had to keep my silly side in there.
As some may call it slave to the masses, we fall short sometimes to what others say because they follow what the world tells us, but whose to say it is the best or most healthy? Should I concern myself with such petty problems as personal beauty and appearance? The world is unkind, but not so shallow that it demands such pointless efforts to control humans to such levels of insecurity and fear. The weak grasp onto a notion in order to get by with their issues instead of facing the problem face to face.
I feel I have fallen short and let those insignificant problems grab ahold of me and let me fall, which I will not for much longer. I feel that for as far as I have come I shouldn't let such a petty trait pull me into such a rut. It's not only that but the things that others say and do as well, but I was good at letting it go, letting it be just another grain of salt in the sands of life. I let what I feel I been lacking in my life control the best of me and make me feel that I am not capable of living in such a world as this. The way I want to live some have said is impossible or lonely, maybe even treacherous because many people will reject the kind of person I may become. That being said, it comes down to the point that every person must face sometime in their life, does it really matter what they think? Does their personal view on what I do with myself even bother or effect them if it has nothing to do with them? Have they become a slave as well and follow the rules the world has set because they are scared of the unknown?
I like to think that if my life is this only time I can live, I will take my chances and do what I feel is right and what will make me happy because life isn't going to give you something on a silver platter. Sitting around waiting for what the world tells you is suppose to come is a waste of time. Break the chains, break the shekels that hold you down and walk your own path. If there is anything I have learned through the hardships I have dealt with and watching other people who wait and make themself suffer for an answer that will never come, it is this: you have to be you no matter what others say. Even if your hated, even if your looked down on, even if you never find love, even if you can't do what you want to do, even if you are alone: it's the brave who break free and do what no other person is willing to do. You can't lose what you don't have and you can't gain anything if you don't try. People are scared of those type of people and reject them because they are rare and have put themself in an unsafe domain.
I am going to be that person no matter what. Oh yea, brownie points. :) Had to keep my silly side in there.