"Can you clean my room?" WTF?!
I literally cleaned the entire house yesterday and today, it was nuts. I never seen the house look so clean all at one time. My mom has been so sick and busy doing laundry and yard work that she told me she would pay me to clean the house. I know, it sounds really gay, but the whole house did look really messy and dusty, my room included. I'm still sick btw so trying to get better and clean at the same time really wore me out. It feels good to sleep in but it won't last long. I keep telling myself to do stuff and I never get around to it like how I need to fill out other job applications and do some drawings. I haven't had time for either, I been trying to catch up with friends and stuff at home. These last few days until summer courses have been long and nice, I'm kinda wondering if I will be completely infatuated with school when I start and have no time to think about anything else but that and work again. It's really werid, I haven't been able to get rest one day, I keep going out. I need to spend one day to recoop, espically before my three days in a row of the 4:45 to 1:15 shift. O_O I need to get out of Genardi's soon, I have to remember that I hate my job and need to change it pronto.
It feels werid, I feel like I'm losing my creative touch with art. As much as I try to draw everyday, it keeps getting harder to focus and think of things to draw. I feel like I have a drawers block, lol. I guess everynow and then people need time away from the passion to just develop more and then rush back to it. I think school defintly gave me a reason to keep up with my art, but I dunno. I wish I had the friend I had before who drew with me. It was comforting to have someone else crietic my work and help develop stories. Eh, it felt werid to lose all that once I stopped being friends with her, it felt werid to do things on my own since i got used to having ehr around, but it helped me. I hope I can get back in my creative mode. I think I was more active when I had a lot of emotions to play with where as now I can't really create an emotional piece unless I really feel I can put it inside physically. It's hard to explain, before when I felt a lot of anger it was easy for me to produce tons of drawings and it felt endless. Even if I was sad or happy, it worked the same way. Now I'm content and I think I can't really think up the same things, I dunno what it is really. Maybe it's lack of new ideas. I tend to draw the same emotion a lot even though in my head I have some ideas, but I can't put it down on the paper because I don't feel them. Eh, this summer will probably help with some feelings or ideas possibly. Other than this, I been enjoying my time with friends and I had a blast today, but I need to sleep. Night night.
It feels werid, I feel like I'm losing my creative touch with art. As much as I try to draw everyday, it keeps getting harder to focus and think of things to draw. I feel like I have a drawers block, lol. I guess everynow and then people need time away from the passion to just develop more and then rush back to it. I think school defintly gave me a reason to keep up with my art, but I dunno. I wish I had the friend I had before who drew with me. It was comforting to have someone else crietic my work and help develop stories. Eh, it felt werid to lose all that once I stopped being friends with her, it felt werid to do things on my own since i got used to having ehr around, but it helped me. I hope I can get back in my creative mode. I think I was more active when I had a lot of emotions to play with where as now I can't really create an emotional piece unless I really feel I can put it inside physically. It's hard to explain, before when I felt a lot of anger it was easy for me to produce tons of drawings and it felt endless. Even if I was sad or happy, it worked the same way. Now I'm content and I think I can't really think up the same things, I dunno what it is really. Maybe it's lack of new ideas. I tend to draw the same emotion a lot even though in my head I have some ideas, but I can't put it down on the paper because I don't feel them. Eh, this summer will probably help with some feelings or ideas possibly. Other than this, I been enjoying my time with friends and I had a blast today, but I need to sleep. Night night.