Mind barf.
...so tonight I'm manic for the first time since the higher dose of my mood stabalizer kicked in - that's been close to two months. I'm not all that concerned; I am currently wedged within my monthly cycle, and that is often when I get a huge dip or a huge rage. It really hit at the end of work tonight (my drawer was 65 cents short) and flared up right in my mother's face when I got home. Right now I'm raging and pissed that I'm pissed.
I'm also not worried because the point of the meds is to keep one as symptom-free as possible. Like I'm sure I've said before, bipolar is much like asthma sometimes. It never goes away despite being healthy for a while and a flare up can catch you off-guard and make you sick for a bit. I'm sure I'll be OK in a few days.
...I hope.
I don't want to talk about that anymore.
Storm's had a disturbing habit for the past few days. He'll eat his dinner (slowly, which is normal for him) and then yark up a chunk of beef on the floor about five minutes after finishing up. I'm not sure why he is doing this. He's been eating from the same batch of meat and has shown no other signs of illness. I know that he was a bit off his food while I was asthmatic this week - that's normal too, much to my dismay - but I've been feeling better. I hope that this ends now too.
Despite going through a week of decongestants I wound up with one of my usual sinus infections. I got my usual antibiotic (azithromycin, which the docs hate to prescribe because it usually takes a couple of bursts to irradicate the badness. I'm allergic to everything else, though...) and wrapped that up two days ago. I'm staying on the decongestant until Monday or so and then will see how I react. I'm hoping that I'll be able to avoid the second batch of antibiotic because I caught this early and didn't wait around for it to get worse before seeing the doctor. I learned that lesson after that four-month sinus infection a few years ago. Ugh.
I've done absolutely nothing with my proposal. It's like I ran out of gas after screwing around with registration - AGAIN - and I haven't been able to fill back up. I'm still not technically a student, but I should have enough to pay for out of state fees this quarter... if I don't get screwed around again while registering.
I don't want to talk about that anymore, either.
I'm gonna eat the dinner that Mom made me. Dark meat chicken and mashed white sweet potatoes - the latter of which I cannot get year-round here.
Sarah
ETA:
I've cooled down a bit now that I've locked myself in my bedroom for about an hour. It occurred to me that I may be this manic for two reasons: I haven't been eating enough plant matter and - most importantly - I've been sleeping like hell for the past month or so. The decongestant makes me get up at least once a night for en emergency food/pee run and then I thrash around for a while because I cannot get back to sleep. I can't wait to get a decent 7 hours after I'm done with the meds.
I'm also not worried because the point of the meds is to keep one as symptom-free as possible. Like I'm sure I've said before, bipolar is much like asthma sometimes. It never goes away despite being healthy for a while and a flare up can catch you off-guard and make you sick for a bit. I'm sure I'll be OK in a few days.
...I hope.
I don't want to talk about that anymore.
Storm's had a disturbing habit for the past few days. He'll eat his dinner (slowly, which is normal for him) and then yark up a chunk of beef on the floor about five minutes after finishing up. I'm not sure why he is doing this. He's been eating from the same batch of meat and has shown no other signs of illness. I know that he was a bit off his food while I was asthmatic this week - that's normal too, much to my dismay - but I've been feeling better. I hope that this ends now too.
Despite going through a week of decongestants I wound up with one of my usual sinus infections. I got my usual antibiotic (azithromycin, which the docs hate to prescribe because it usually takes a couple of bursts to irradicate the badness. I'm allergic to everything else, though...) and wrapped that up two days ago. I'm staying on the decongestant until Monday or so and then will see how I react. I'm hoping that I'll be able to avoid the second batch of antibiotic because I caught this early and didn't wait around for it to get worse before seeing the doctor. I learned that lesson after that four-month sinus infection a few years ago. Ugh.
I've done absolutely nothing with my proposal. It's like I ran out of gas after screwing around with registration - AGAIN - and I haven't been able to fill back up. I'm still not technically a student, but I should have enough to pay for out of state fees this quarter... if I don't get screwed around again while registering.
I don't want to talk about that anymore, either.
I'm gonna eat the dinner that Mom made me. Dark meat chicken and mashed white sweet potatoes - the latter of which I cannot get year-round here.
Sarah
ETA:
I've cooled down a bit now that I've locked myself in my bedroom for about an hour. It occurred to me that I may be this manic for two reasons: I haven't been eating enough plant matter and - most importantly - I've been sleeping like hell for the past month or so. The decongestant makes me get up at least once a night for en emergency food/pee run and then I thrash around for a while because I cannot get back to sleep. I can't wait to get a decent 7 hours after I'm done with the meds.