56, or the birthday all my dreams crumbled to dust.
Yup. Here it is again. Got my driver's license renewed this year, and yeah...viva la fucking difference. I first told the mate "I look like a grumpy old german." No, she's right. Just a grumpy old man. Though if you'll pardon this method of discovery, when I viewed myself in the bathroom mirror, dressed only in my underwear(Yeah I know. That image is now permanently seared into your retinas.) wearing nylon gloves since I was about to dye my mate's hair, I thought I looked more like a turn of the 20th century pugilist, or one of those strongmen you see from the same era carrying a dumbbell with the number 500 on both sides or something like that. I've gained at least 40 pounds from my last picture, where I looked more like a redneck. Yay.
And oh yes, those who have died this year. Nobody really close, if only because there's so few who are left.
Two friends, and the naturopathic doctor who founded the clinic we still get our supplements from all passed within a couple months of each other.
Whoever said 'Live fast. Die young.' was right, at least on the second part. Last dragon standing, left to turn out the fucking lights, baby!
It's been...weird. My birthday. Isn't this supposed to be a happy occasion? And yet, *snort*.
Back in the 90's, I still remember a time when all the relationships I had resulted in a major, mostly positive transformation in my parther...after it ended. I was like, "That's all well and good, but when will it be my turn?" This seems to have come around again, only the topic is now death. Everyone ELSE is ascending, and so the same question now applies. "That's all well and good, but when will it be my turn?"
For you see, Death is the only thing left TO want. Out of everything in life, it's the one thing that neither God nor anyone else can deny me. Hopes? Dreams? They will end in dust, always. A precious few might...read might outlive you. Don't count on it though. And if by some miracle they do, don't expect them to stay the same. Likely they'll get morphed and twisted until you wouldn't recognize them if you were still alive.
Look into your future. This is what you have to look forward to.