A RELIEF!
wow! what a relief! natalie found someone! :D :D
you have no idea how much better this makes me feel! the guilt and the shame from what i felt i did to her, as what was done to me, is now over!!
she did find a better place for herself...i could say something that should have happened a year ago, but who knows? maybe our experience prepared her for what she has now, maybe our experience prepared me for what i have now...there's no telling, i'm just glad she's happy.
i would have said well how must she feel now? probably no better because i wasn't sure if she really wanted to be studying what she was out there, but hey, as always it comes back to her relationship with others...and if i know she's in a relationship that is helping to enlighten her, what more could anyone ask for!
and for that reason, i am happy she has moved on and gotten out of her parents house, they must be so happy for her...maybe not for the right reasons, but always, for the right reasons...she's out of the house and she's finding her independence with someone she reallly cares about! what beauty!
i may not be able to tell her this, maybe i want to, but i'm not sure if i need to, perhaps some things are better left unsaid...don't know if she would take it the right way either, but at least i know she's in a better place and probably a better state of mind.
funny how somethings don't get closure, or perhaps don't need to, i could say i still need closure with scarlett, but hey, we're friends, nothing ended on bad terms, we probably didn't end up in a relationship for a good reason as well.
so it seems i must be in the right place at the right time, don't know what that means or where it's leading, but everything is happening for a reason.
absolutely everything.
you have no idea how much better this makes me feel! the guilt and the shame from what i felt i did to her, as what was done to me, is now over!!
she did find a better place for herself...i could say something that should have happened a year ago, but who knows? maybe our experience prepared her for what she has now, maybe our experience prepared me for what i have now...there's no telling, i'm just glad she's happy.
i would have said well how must she feel now? probably no better because i wasn't sure if she really wanted to be studying what she was out there, but hey, as always it comes back to her relationship with others...and if i know she's in a relationship that is helping to enlighten her, what more could anyone ask for!
and for that reason, i am happy she has moved on and gotten out of her parents house, they must be so happy for her...maybe not for the right reasons, but always, for the right reasons...she's out of the house and she's finding her independence with someone she reallly cares about! what beauty!
i may not be able to tell her this, maybe i want to, but i'm not sure if i need to, perhaps some things are better left unsaid...don't know if she would take it the right way either, but at least i know she's in a better place and probably a better state of mind.
funny how somethings don't get closure, or perhaps don't need to, i could say i still need closure with scarlett, but hey, we're friends, nothing ended on bad terms, we probably didn't end up in a relationship for a good reason as well.
so it seems i must be in the right place at the right time, don't know what that means or where it's leading, but everything is happening for a reason.
absolutely everything.