letter from today
i am so grateful to be living in los angeles with all of my friends. i love their company, i love their smiles and their warmth. i love being good to them because they are good to me. i love smoking with them, i love laughing with them. i love having friends that i can meditate and share my spiritual practices with.
i love having tauna in my life. i am glad that we are best friends and even though we're not together anymore, i still feel she understands me better than anyone ever has. i am grateful that she has given me the ability to feel that someone will love me for who i am and that i have done the same for her. i love making beautiful, melodic and emotional music with her.
i love waking up everyday and knowing EXACTLY what to do! i love the thrill of how it feels to create my day and my direct experience. i love being able to trust my intuition and all the decisions i make. i love waking up to a morning meditation that keeps my head clear throughout the day as does visiting the buddhist temple by my house before and after work.
i love working at my yogurt shop where i can get time off whenever i want it and have all my weekend nights off. i love that my co-workers are also my best friends.
i love the salary that i have. i love getting lots of tips in a big tip jar so that everyone who comes in knows to tip us well. i love going home with money in my pocket everyday and always having enough money to pay my bills and live comfortably. i love the challenge of keeping my utility bills as low as possible, for the environment and for my own good. i love having all of my credit card debt paid off!
i love packing nutritious lunches for work that keep me healthy and balanced and help me save money. i love recycling and never littering and taking the bus to work whenever i can to help save money and reduce pollution. i love working next to trader joes where i can grocery shop and get wonderful healthy and inexpensive organic foods and a blockbuster where i can rent all the movies i want.
i love getting free food and free water whenever i am hungry and thirsty at work. i love the delicious cookies and muffins and juices that keep me energized and bring me comfort throughout the day. i love that there is a private bathroom at my work where i can masturbate and smoke pot without being bothered.
i love smoking a bowl and masturbating everyday after getting off work, it relieves my stress and makes me feel refreshed so that i can get into a creative mode to play my guitar and work on my band. i love that smoking marijuana helps me figure out how my subconscious mind works and that masturbating relieves me of the sexual frustration i feel throughout the day.
i love the people that come into my yogurt shop everyday and all the people that i have met that have helped me find new oppurtunities and have given me suggestions to live my life more healthy and positive on a daily basis. i love that i can see thru differences and find something good about everyone i meet now that i have overcome my social problems.
i love being good at something i do for a living and that i feel good about the service we provide to our customers. i love being able to give discounts to people at work who are nice to me.
i love not having a boss around when i am working and being in an environment that does not make me feel uncomfortable. i love coming to work late and not being yelled at. i love not having a lot of strict rules at work. i love having a boss that is nice to us and treats us all well.
i love having high profile celebrities and big cash makers for customers that people and headlines around the world talk about everyday, it teaches me that even wealth and noteriety are not enough to make you happy and secure with yourself, in fact, it can do just the opposite.
i love that hot women with big, sexy breasts and beautiful faces come in on a daily basis to give my eyes something wonderful to look at as well as to evaluate my true desires in women when they are insincere as people. i love that women that come in flirt with me all the time at work and that i am able to get their phone numbers whenever i want.
i love that i now have the ability to talk to anyone and everyone and say whatever i want to them whenever i want in a way that uplifts them in a positive way. i love attracting the right people in my life at the right time. i love not being paranoid about dissapointing people anymore. i love my new people skills, i love being comfortable in a room of people. i love being able to make them laugh, i love being able to bring them joy. i love being able to teach and inspire people about their spiritual selves on a daily basis and knowing what to say at the right time when they need my help. i love being able to be in front of volumes of people and handle them with ease and speak and listen to them with absolute confidence.
i love being grateful to people when they do good things for me and giving them calls and text messages on holidays and birthdays. i love calling my friends back when i need to.
i love shaving my bald head. it reminds me that i don't need my looks to be myself. i find it easier to find my center. i love having a girlfriend and friends that appreciate it as well.
i am grateful that i have learned to be good to my friends and family just as much as my girlfriends thru disappointment after disappointment in love relationships and hurting and losing close friends. i am grateful to have learned to be picky about who i choose to love as well so that only the people who truly care for me are given my trust.
i love having skin that is clean and fresh and vibrant. i love having eyes and ears that i can see and hear crystal clear with.
i love my healthy body, lungs, intestines, strong mind and teeth with no cavities and drinking water and eating good, inexpensive foods on a daily basis. i love not grinding my teeth anymore at night and throughout the day and cleaning my teeth with a softer brush so that they don't wear down anymore! i love overcoming my oral fixation!
i love going to the fruit truck parked down the street and getting cheap, delicious apples every week. i love going to the mexican food markets and getting wonderful new foods with foreign smells and tastes and spices. i love eating at the thai and chinese restaurants, and their gourmet flavors and textures. i love my regular diet of freshly cooked vegetables. i love taking daily vitamin packets throughout the day. i love having a regular intake of vitamins and calcium and protein to keep me happy and healthy and feeling good everyday.
i love exercising. i love stretching before work everyday so that my back and legs stay strong and healthy. i love my mother's suggestion of being more limber in my movements when i work to keep my body more agile. i love being high and taking long walks in my neighborhood and listening to my cd player and getting inspired. i love sitting on tops of tall hills and on my rooftop watching the big city below me and all the lights and the sounds.
i love my car, i only payed 700 dollars for it and gets me everywhere i want to go. i haven't had any problems with it! it's black, it's dark, it's sexy, it's punk rock with a patch over it's left tail light. i love hooking up my portable cd player to it with an adapter in the cassette player and listening to my favorite music as well as the music i create thru it's loud and clear speakers. i love the buzzing sound it makes when i turn on the radio, it makes me feel good. i love having a heater that works and windows to manually roll down when i am hot. i love that i have two windows that roll up so that i can keep my car secure whenever i park. i love always having gas money.
i love never getting pulled over or getting parking tickets anymore so that my insurance stays at a low, affordable rate.
i love living close to my mom so that i can see her when she needs me and when i need her and to visit her on holidays. i am grateful that our relationship has improved so much over the past few years.
i love eating at arnolds and panda express with her in long beach. i love the long spiritual talks we have that help us live our life after every meeting. i love that we now have so much to talk about. i love her outlook, i am grateful for all the spiritual lessons and all the culture she has shown me growing up because i carry them out in my life on a daily basis.
i am grateful for the way she treats people and the giving she does because it inspires me to do the same. i am grateful for all the love and joy she gave me as a child and continues to give me in letters and phone calls, always exactly when i need to hear the truth. i am proud to have a mother as beautiful and wise and insightful as her that inspired my choice in fine women.
i am grateful that my mother and godfather were so wise and gave me so much wisdom to listen to so that i could be a good listener. i am grateful to my mom for teaching me how to treat a woman as only as a good, strong woman could. i am grateful to my mom for teaching me that the people with the highest chins were often the most insecure and for teaching me that fighting people doesn't solve anything.
i am grateful to my godfather who has inspired me to travel, as well as my mother has to find beauty in other cultures. i am grateful for the lessons of sai baba, the i am, course in miracles, eckhart tolle in the power of now and the information presented in the secret. these lessons have impacted my life forever.
i am grateful that my mother and godfather gave me so much so that i would learn to trust that the universe will always provide. i am grateful for the long, lazy sundays of pop tarts and cartoons and movies and buying toys at my godfathers that gave me the joy of receiving good things.
i am grateful to roy hassett who gave me a roof to live under for 14 years and his and my mom's stable and non-confrontational relationship that gave me the peace of living at home. i am grateful for the warm, home cooked dinners that taught me how to eat and how to be thankful for what i had. i am grateful for their support in my art growing up. i am grateful that their relationship gave me a sense of family in mother and father as well as the relationship i had with his family. i am grateful to roy hassett for his continued support to me and my endevours.
i am grateful for visiting my family in florida and the time that i spent living there that also gave me a sense of what it was like to have a family.
i am grateful that my mom and godfather are now much happier in their living situations and don't need me to make them happy as much as they used to.
i am grateful for my mother and father's relationship and their genes and history that have made me so funny and clever and have given me such a nice body with such a fast metabolism to look at and share with my lover. i love my defined jaw line and high cheek bones. i love my long artsy fingers, broad shoulders and ribs that stick out of my skin. i love my eye for detail and my creative and witty spark that they gave me as well. i love being good with words and having an ear for music.
i love living in the wonderful location in between hollywood and downtown los angeles of my beautiful apartment. i love decorating it with asian culture. i love having clean floors and tiles and clean dishes and sinks and bathtubs and trash that i take out to keep my place smelling and feeling fresh everyday. i love not having roaches in my apartment and the carpet being food and dust free.
i love living next to a pharmacy where i get hooked up regularly with herb. i love being able to get my friends herb whenever they need it. i love being able to smoke whenever i want to.
i love living next to a korean buddhist temple where i can meditate and relax whenever i want and where the people who run the place are nice and friendly and i am glad to have met them. i love listening to music and getting high and taking long bubble baths and showers when i am stressed.
i love having a computer and internet that is affordable and that works and gives me fast dsl connections. i love being able to send email and communicate with my friends and my godfather and promote my band on myspace and purevolume. i love being able to sell my cd on the internet. i love writing online journal entries and writing blogs that my friends comment on. i love receiving new friend requests on myspace from people i just met. i love having a midi controller and a laptop to make music on whenever i want. i love never getting viruses.
i love being able to buy good and inexpensive clothing and shoes from goodwill whenever i want. i love having a doctor, a dentist and an optomotrist that i like and can visit inexpensively whenever i need to as well as having a wonderful medical insurance plan that helps me pay for it.
i love paying such low rent and never getting noise complaints. i love getting checks regularly in the mail. i love my landlord and how leniant they are towards me. i love being the only white boy in an all mexican builing.
i love living with mexicans, their smiles are contagious. they are happy and they play with their children and i never hear them scold at or yell or spank their kids or have troubles with their neighbors.
i love the feeling of fresh, early and foggy mornings and the sounds of the children and their parents as they are getting ready for work and school. their little footsteps bring me joy whenever they pass my door and laugh and scream and yell at each other with excitement. they play loud music and it's always festive and lively. i love how they accept me and never give me dirty looks.
i love being able to go out in los angeles to raves, concerts, restaurants and arcades. i love living next to two amazing arcades that i can go to anytime! i love owning a super nintendo and sega genesis that i can play all my favorite old video games on. i love watching and owning all the old movies that i loved as a child on my big tv screen with perfect matching wooden tv stand. i love all the furniture i was given by my mom and godfather for free.
i love the rave scene out here. i love going to hardcore raves and dancing my ass off! i love being able to go with my best friends. i love the people in the rave scene, their smiles are also contagious. i love rolling balls with my friends and my lover, and sharing our kiss under this passionate new spell and how it inspires us to find love in each other in a new way. i love meeting new people to collaborate with musically and getting new oppurtunities to play parties. i love meeting new people to hang out with and i love that i met my girlfriend at one.
i love doing things with my band whenever i want! i love doing it for fun, and playing raves! i feel that what we are doing is such a fresh and new sound that i have never heard before! i love performing in the rave scene, it's so much better than rock clubs! i love that we have our own sound engineer for our live shows so that we always have good and balanced levels! i love having an understanding with my band that we are only doing it because it makes us feel good and we don't have to be rockstars to make ourselves happy.
i love making music videos with my band for free. i love taking photoshoots and creating our vision. i love writing music and recording it with my band. i love rehearsing with my band in a comfortable and safe environment where we get no noise complaints.
i love playing guitar and turning up my home stereo as loud as i want when i am alone. i love writing poetry and painting paintings and writing down new ideas for books and comic books all the time, at home and at work. i know that i will fully take advantage of every creative endevour that i come across. i love my patience and persistence when i am creating because it makes my work more effective and complete.
i love drawing and coloring and listening to music on long, rainy days. i love listening to the pitter patter of the water as it drops on my window from outside. i love walking out to my car the next morning and seeing the water drops all over the paint and on the ground. i love being able to wash my car regularly, it feels good when it is clean and organized.
i love not worrying about my time and money and how i make a living with how old i'm getting anymore. i love not worrying about the past anymore and truly living for today. i love using my freetime however i wish, i love laying around, i love masturbating, i love looking at breasts for long periods of time while i'm high on my computer. i love meditating afterwards and allowing the orgasm to fill every cell in my body. i love how it inspires me to find more pleasures throughout the day!
i love lighting incense. i love spiritual practices, i love thinking clearly and freely, i love practicing balance and moderation. i love knowing that choice is the ultimate sacrifice for my happiness. i love that my friends support me in this. i love being myself and living for the moment. i love surprises and reuniting with old friends and lovers. i love being grateful, it also makes me feel good and it is my choice. i love knowing that i can do things and make plans for the future with ease and without effort because i know what being grateful can do to change my life.
i am grateful to be living in such a monumental time in human history and consciousness where people will start turning around and start living like the good vibrational holders they were meant to be as all of this new information on error in human experience is given to the planet.
i am grateful for all the psychedelic, mind exploring party experiences i have had in the past. they have helped me find my true self as well as others in ways i never expected. i carry these lessons out on a daily basis and i show love to all the lessons i am still learning and being introduced to all the time thru internet, magazines, books and dvds. i love being able to visit a beautiful, extensive library right by my house whenever i want.
i am grateful to have worked as a master. it has given me the ability to be strong and straight forward and outspoken with people, as well as the ability to demand what i want from them and have their respect. i am grateful that so many of my clients were successful and many of them professors so that i could learn that school and money were not all that i needed in life.
i am grateful for having worked as a masseuse. it taught me that i can give people love and relaxation with the simple touch of my hands.
i love being good in bed. i love being a good kisser. i love being a good lover.
i love having a girl in my life that i love very much, who pleases me in everyway sexually and intellectually as well as artistically. i love that she is funny and clever and emotionally intellegent. i love her name and her sense of style, even the way she talks. i love her long brown hair, i love her curvacious body and big, firm breasts that hold up on her chest and that she is fit and loves to exercise and eat healthy. i love her soft tight lips and the way her tongue tastes when i kiss her. i love that she does not smoke cigarettes or party too much and loves to socialize as much as i do but does not ask to be the center of attention. i love that we are good and faithful to one another. i love the deep conversations we have about life, i love laughing with her and the challenges we give one another to find our true selves, together.
i love getting high with her and feeling her strong, sexy energy pressed against mine. i love laying with her and doing nothing and enjoying our being together on this earth. i love laying in the appreciation and the joy of silence for long periods of time and losing ourselves in it with her. i love that she understands silence and listens to it like i do. i love that she comforts me by allowing me to suck on her big breasts whenever i need it.
i love watching movies and listening to music with her. she has a wonderful taste and understanding of music and american culture, as well as other cultures. she is a blessing to take out and she never complains, and she is wonderfully low maintenance. she knows herself and she is my age with her own apartment and her own car. she knows how to take care of herself. she loves her job and finds a way for it to make her a better person. i love that she never clings to me too much and understands when i am too busy to see her. she is always there for me when i need her and i am always there for her when she needs me. she has her own art that she is passionate about and this occupys much of her time.
i love going on long walks with her in the park and at the beach. i love digging sand castles with her and eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches on the sand. i love being goofy and child-like with her. i love that she has had a loving and supportive childhood with a family that she has had a good relationship with. i love that i can totally be myself with her. i love stimulating her, i love how she stimulates and inspires me to be a better person on a daily basis. she is absolutely beautiful to me and i could ask for nothing better.
i can't believe i have met someone so real, beautiful and strong and has been thru so much as her in los angeles.
i love living in los angeles.
i love living with an attitude of gratitude from this day on and how it will change my life FOREVER! and i love how it will be IMPOSSIBLE for me to forget to do so because the effects are so ENORMOUS!! :) :) :)
i am so wealthy and abundant in all areas of my life as i have now discovered by writing this today! THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!
i love having tauna in my life. i am glad that we are best friends and even though we're not together anymore, i still feel she understands me better than anyone ever has. i am grateful that she has given me the ability to feel that someone will love me for who i am and that i have done the same for her. i love making beautiful, melodic and emotional music with her.
i love waking up everyday and knowing EXACTLY what to do! i love the thrill of how it feels to create my day and my direct experience. i love being able to trust my intuition and all the decisions i make. i love waking up to a morning meditation that keeps my head clear throughout the day as does visiting the buddhist temple by my house before and after work.
i love working at my yogurt shop where i can get time off whenever i want it and have all my weekend nights off. i love that my co-workers are also my best friends.
i love the salary that i have. i love getting lots of tips in a big tip jar so that everyone who comes in knows to tip us well. i love going home with money in my pocket everyday and always having enough money to pay my bills and live comfortably. i love the challenge of keeping my utility bills as low as possible, for the environment and for my own good. i love having all of my credit card debt paid off!
i love packing nutritious lunches for work that keep me healthy and balanced and help me save money. i love recycling and never littering and taking the bus to work whenever i can to help save money and reduce pollution. i love working next to trader joes where i can grocery shop and get wonderful healthy and inexpensive organic foods and a blockbuster where i can rent all the movies i want.
i love getting free food and free water whenever i am hungry and thirsty at work. i love the delicious cookies and muffins and juices that keep me energized and bring me comfort throughout the day. i love that there is a private bathroom at my work where i can masturbate and smoke pot without being bothered.
i love smoking a bowl and masturbating everyday after getting off work, it relieves my stress and makes me feel refreshed so that i can get into a creative mode to play my guitar and work on my band. i love that smoking marijuana helps me figure out how my subconscious mind works and that masturbating relieves me of the sexual frustration i feel throughout the day.
i love the people that come into my yogurt shop everyday and all the people that i have met that have helped me find new oppurtunities and have given me suggestions to live my life more healthy and positive on a daily basis. i love that i can see thru differences and find something good about everyone i meet now that i have overcome my social problems.
i love being good at something i do for a living and that i feel good about the service we provide to our customers. i love being able to give discounts to people at work who are nice to me.
i love not having a boss around when i am working and being in an environment that does not make me feel uncomfortable. i love coming to work late and not being yelled at. i love not having a lot of strict rules at work. i love having a boss that is nice to us and treats us all well.
i love having high profile celebrities and big cash makers for customers that people and headlines around the world talk about everyday, it teaches me that even wealth and noteriety are not enough to make you happy and secure with yourself, in fact, it can do just the opposite.
i love that hot women with big, sexy breasts and beautiful faces come in on a daily basis to give my eyes something wonderful to look at as well as to evaluate my true desires in women when they are insincere as people. i love that women that come in flirt with me all the time at work and that i am able to get their phone numbers whenever i want.
i love that i now have the ability to talk to anyone and everyone and say whatever i want to them whenever i want in a way that uplifts them in a positive way. i love attracting the right people in my life at the right time. i love not being paranoid about dissapointing people anymore. i love my new people skills, i love being comfortable in a room of people. i love being able to make them laugh, i love being able to bring them joy. i love being able to teach and inspire people about their spiritual selves on a daily basis and knowing what to say at the right time when they need my help. i love being able to be in front of volumes of people and handle them with ease and speak and listen to them with absolute confidence.
i love being grateful to people when they do good things for me and giving them calls and text messages on holidays and birthdays. i love calling my friends back when i need to.
i love shaving my bald head. it reminds me that i don't need my looks to be myself. i find it easier to find my center. i love having a girlfriend and friends that appreciate it as well.
i am grateful that i have learned to be good to my friends and family just as much as my girlfriends thru disappointment after disappointment in love relationships and hurting and losing close friends. i am grateful to have learned to be picky about who i choose to love as well so that only the people who truly care for me are given my trust.
i love having skin that is clean and fresh and vibrant. i love having eyes and ears that i can see and hear crystal clear with.
i love my healthy body, lungs, intestines, strong mind and teeth with no cavities and drinking water and eating good, inexpensive foods on a daily basis. i love not grinding my teeth anymore at night and throughout the day and cleaning my teeth with a softer brush so that they don't wear down anymore! i love overcoming my oral fixation!
i love going to the fruit truck parked down the street and getting cheap, delicious apples every week. i love going to the mexican food markets and getting wonderful new foods with foreign smells and tastes and spices. i love eating at the thai and chinese restaurants, and their gourmet flavors and textures. i love my regular diet of freshly cooked vegetables. i love taking daily vitamin packets throughout the day. i love having a regular intake of vitamins and calcium and protein to keep me happy and healthy and feeling good everyday.
i love exercising. i love stretching before work everyday so that my back and legs stay strong and healthy. i love my mother's suggestion of being more limber in my movements when i work to keep my body more agile. i love being high and taking long walks in my neighborhood and listening to my cd player and getting inspired. i love sitting on tops of tall hills and on my rooftop watching the big city below me and all the lights and the sounds.
i love my car, i only payed 700 dollars for it and gets me everywhere i want to go. i haven't had any problems with it! it's black, it's dark, it's sexy, it's punk rock with a patch over it's left tail light. i love hooking up my portable cd player to it with an adapter in the cassette player and listening to my favorite music as well as the music i create thru it's loud and clear speakers. i love the buzzing sound it makes when i turn on the radio, it makes me feel good. i love having a heater that works and windows to manually roll down when i am hot. i love that i have two windows that roll up so that i can keep my car secure whenever i park. i love always having gas money.
i love never getting pulled over or getting parking tickets anymore so that my insurance stays at a low, affordable rate.
i love living close to my mom so that i can see her when she needs me and when i need her and to visit her on holidays. i am grateful that our relationship has improved so much over the past few years.
i love eating at arnolds and panda express with her in long beach. i love the long spiritual talks we have that help us live our life after every meeting. i love that we now have so much to talk about. i love her outlook, i am grateful for all the spiritual lessons and all the culture she has shown me growing up because i carry them out in my life on a daily basis.
i am grateful for the way she treats people and the giving she does because it inspires me to do the same. i am grateful for all the love and joy she gave me as a child and continues to give me in letters and phone calls, always exactly when i need to hear the truth. i am proud to have a mother as beautiful and wise and insightful as her that inspired my choice in fine women.
i am grateful that my mother and godfather were so wise and gave me so much wisdom to listen to so that i could be a good listener. i am grateful to my mom for teaching me how to treat a woman as only as a good, strong woman could. i am grateful to my mom for teaching me that the people with the highest chins were often the most insecure and for teaching me that fighting people doesn't solve anything.
i am grateful to my godfather who has inspired me to travel, as well as my mother has to find beauty in other cultures. i am grateful for the lessons of sai baba, the i am, course in miracles, eckhart tolle in the power of now and the information presented in the secret. these lessons have impacted my life forever.
i am grateful that my mother and godfather gave me so much so that i would learn to trust that the universe will always provide. i am grateful for the long, lazy sundays of pop tarts and cartoons and movies and buying toys at my godfathers that gave me the joy of receiving good things.
i am grateful to roy hassett who gave me a roof to live under for 14 years and his and my mom's stable and non-confrontational relationship that gave me the peace of living at home. i am grateful for the warm, home cooked dinners that taught me how to eat and how to be thankful for what i had. i am grateful for their support in my art growing up. i am grateful that their relationship gave me a sense of family in mother and father as well as the relationship i had with his family. i am grateful to roy hassett for his continued support to me and my endevours.
i am grateful for visiting my family in florida and the time that i spent living there that also gave me a sense of what it was like to have a family.
i am grateful that my mom and godfather are now much happier in their living situations and don't need me to make them happy as much as they used to.
i am grateful for my mother and father's relationship and their genes and history that have made me so funny and clever and have given me such a nice body with such a fast metabolism to look at and share with my lover. i love my defined jaw line and high cheek bones. i love my long artsy fingers, broad shoulders and ribs that stick out of my skin. i love my eye for detail and my creative and witty spark that they gave me as well. i love being good with words and having an ear for music.
i love living in the wonderful location in between hollywood and downtown los angeles of my beautiful apartment. i love decorating it with asian culture. i love having clean floors and tiles and clean dishes and sinks and bathtubs and trash that i take out to keep my place smelling and feeling fresh everyday. i love not having roaches in my apartment and the carpet being food and dust free.
i love living next to a pharmacy where i get hooked up regularly with herb. i love being able to get my friends herb whenever they need it. i love being able to smoke whenever i want to.
i love living next to a korean buddhist temple where i can meditate and relax whenever i want and where the people who run the place are nice and friendly and i am glad to have met them. i love listening to music and getting high and taking long bubble baths and showers when i am stressed.
i love having a computer and internet that is affordable and that works and gives me fast dsl connections. i love being able to send email and communicate with my friends and my godfather and promote my band on myspace and purevolume. i love being able to sell my cd on the internet. i love writing online journal entries and writing blogs that my friends comment on. i love receiving new friend requests on myspace from people i just met. i love having a midi controller and a laptop to make music on whenever i want. i love never getting viruses.
i love being able to buy good and inexpensive clothing and shoes from goodwill whenever i want. i love having a doctor, a dentist and an optomotrist that i like and can visit inexpensively whenever i need to as well as having a wonderful medical insurance plan that helps me pay for it.
i love paying such low rent and never getting noise complaints. i love getting checks regularly in the mail. i love my landlord and how leniant they are towards me. i love being the only white boy in an all mexican builing.
i love living with mexicans, their smiles are contagious. they are happy and they play with their children and i never hear them scold at or yell or spank their kids or have troubles with their neighbors.
i love the feeling of fresh, early and foggy mornings and the sounds of the children and their parents as they are getting ready for work and school. their little footsteps bring me joy whenever they pass my door and laugh and scream and yell at each other with excitement. they play loud music and it's always festive and lively. i love how they accept me and never give me dirty looks.
i love being able to go out in los angeles to raves, concerts, restaurants and arcades. i love living next to two amazing arcades that i can go to anytime! i love owning a super nintendo and sega genesis that i can play all my favorite old video games on. i love watching and owning all the old movies that i loved as a child on my big tv screen with perfect matching wooden tv stand. i love all the furniture i was given by my mom and godfather for free.
i love the rave scene out here. i love going to hardcore raves and dancing my ass off! i love being able to go with my best friends. i love the people in the rave scene, their smiles are also contagious. i love rolling balls with my friends and my lover, and sharing our kiss under this passionate new spell and how it inspires us to find love in each other in a new way. i love meeting new people to collaborate with musically and getting new oppurtunities to play parties. i love meeting new people to hang out with and i love that i met my girlfriend at one.
i love doing things with my band whenever i want! i love doing it for fun, and playing raves! i feel that what we are doing is such a fresh and new sound that i have never heard before! i love performing in the rave scene, it's so much better than rock clubs! i love that we have our own sound engineer for our live shows so that we always have good and balanced levels! i love having an understanding with my band that we are only doing it because it makes us feel good and we don't have to be rockstars to make ourselves happy.
i love making music videos with my band for free. i love taking photoshoots and creating our vision. i love writing music and recording it with my band. i love rehearsing with my band in a comfortable and safe environment where we get no noise complaints.
i love playing guitar and turning up my home stereo as loud as i want when i am alone. i love writing poetry and painting paintings and writing down new ideas for books and comic books all the time, at home and at work. i know that i will fully take advantage of every creative endevour that i come across. i love my patience and persistence when i am creating because it makes my work more effective and complete.
i love drawing and coloring and listening to music on long, rainy days. i love listening to the pitter patter of the water as it drops on my window from outside. i love walking out to my car the next morning and seeing the water drops all over the paint and on the ground. i love being able to wash my car regularly, it feels good when it is clean and organized.
i love not worrying about my time and money and how i make a living with how old i'm getting anymore. i love not worrying about the past anymore and truly living for today. i love using my freetime however i wish, i love laying around, i love masturbating, i love looking at breasts for long periods of time while i'm high on my computer. i love meditating afterwards and allowing the orgasm to fill every cell in my body. i love how it inspires me to find more pleasures throughout the day!
i love lighting incense. i love spiritual practices, i love thinking clearly and freely, i love practicing balance and moderation. i love knowing that choice is the ultimate sacrifice for my happiness. i love that my friends support me in this. i love being myself and living for the moment. i love surprises and reuniting with old friends and lovers. i love being grateful, it also makes me feel good and it is my choice. i love knowing that i can do things and make plans for the future with ease and without effort because i know what being grateful can do to change my life.
i am grateful to be living in such a monumental time in human history and consciousness where people will start turning around and start living like the good vibrational holders they were meant to be as all of this new information on error in human experience is given to the planet.
i am grateful for all the psychedelic, mind exploring party experiences i have had in the past. they have helped me find my true self as well as others in ways i never expected. i carry these lessons out on a daily basis and i show love to all the lessons i am still learning and being introduced to all the time thru internet, magazines, books and dvds. i love being able to visit a beautiful, extensive library right by my house whenever i want.
i am grateful to have worked as a master. it has given me the ability to be strong and straight forward and outspoken with people, as well as the ability to demand what i want from them and have their respect. i am grateful that so many of my clients were successful and many of them professors so that i could learn that school and money were not all that i needed in life.
i am grateful for having worked as a masseuse. it taught me that i can give people love and relaxation with the simple touch of my hands.
i love being good in bed. i love being a good kisser. i love being a good lover.
i love having a girl in my life that i love very much, who pleases me in everyway sexually and intellectually as well as artistically. i love that she is funny and clever and emotionally intellegent. i love her name and her sense of style, even the way she talks. i love her long brown hair, i love her curvacious body and big, firm breasts that hold up on her chest and that she is fit and loves to exercise and eat healthy. i love her soft tight lips and the way her tongue tastes when i kiss her. i love that she does not smoke cigarettes or party too much and loves to socialize as much as i do but does not ask to be the center of attention. i love that we are good and faithful to one another. i love the deep conversations we have about life, i love laughing with her and the challenges we give one another to find our true selves, together.
i love getting high with her and feeling her strong, sexy energy pressed against mine. i love laying with her and doing nothing and enjoying our being together on this earth. i love laying in the appreciation and the joy of silence for long periods of time and losing ourselves in it with her. i love that she understands silence and listens to it like i do. i love that she comforts me by allowing me to suck on her big breasts whenever i need it.
i love watching movies and listening to music with her. she has a wonderful taste and understanding of music and american culture, as well as other cultures. she is a blessing to take out and she never complains, and she is wonderfully low maintenance. she knows herself and she is my age with her own apartment and her own car. she knows how to take care of herself. she loves her job and finds a way for it to make her a better person. i love that she never clings to me too much and understands when i am too busy to see her. she is always there for me when i need her and i am always there for her when she needs me. she has her own art that she is passionate about and this occupys much of her time.
i love going on long walks with her in the park and at the beach. i love digging sand castles with her and eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches on the sand. i love being goofy and child-like with her. i love that she has had a loving and supportive childhood with a family that she has had a good relationship with. i love that i can totally be myself with her. i love stimulating her, i love how she stimulates and inspires me to be a better person on a daily basis. she is absolutely beautiful to me and i could ask for nothing better.
i can't believe i have met someone so real, beautiful and strong and has been thru so much as her in los angeles.
i love living in los angeles.
i love living with an attitude of gratitude from this day on and how it will change my life FOREVER! and i love how it will be IMPOSSIBLE for me to forget to do so because the effects are so ENORMOUS!! :) :) :)
i am so wealthy and abundant in all areas of my life as i have now discovered by writing this today! THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!