Another realization
If I have any spelling errors, bear with me. It's a late night.
Today I realized that I will always be lonely. It doesn't matter who I'm with. It's a fact of life. Somehow, nobody will be able to relieve that.
I can be in a crowd of a hundred, no, a thousand people and I will still feel the loneliness.
I can be with my lover (if I had one; I'm basing this on past experience) and still be lonely.
I can have a hundred friends and still be lonely.
It doesn't matter. No matter who I'm with, my head will still be all alone. Most of the time that's good; I don't want anyone knowing everything I'm thinking, even my best friend. It's mine. I guard my most private thoughts jealously.
I think everyone is this way. Whether they consciously think it or not, everyone is lonely all the damn time.
I can say this realization will make me try to change it, but really, I can't. The lonely is there. It cannot be removed. By changing the fact I'm lonely it negates the lonely and therefore the theory falls to pieces. All I can change is how I handle it.
I hate the lonely, but it's a part of me, and of everyone.
too tired to really do a good, thought-provoking post.
Today I realized that I will always be lonely. It doesn't matter who I'm with. It's a fact of life. Somehow, nobody will be able to relieve that.
I can be in a crowd of a hundred, no, a thousand people and I will still feel the loneliness.
I can be with my lover (if I had one; I'm basing this on past experience) and still be lonely.
I can have a hundred friends and still be lonely.
It doesn't matter. No matter who I'm with, my head will still be all alone. Most of the time that's good; I don't want anyone knowing everything I'm thinking, even my best friend. It's mine. I guard my most private thoughts jealously.
I think everyone is this way. Whether they consciously think it or not, everyone is lonely all the damn time.
I can say this realization will make me try to change it, but really, I can't. The lonely is there. It cannot be removed. By changing the fact I'm lonely it negates the lonely and therefore the theory falls to pieces. All I can change is how I handle it.
I hate the lonely, but it's a part of me, and of everyone.
too tired to really do a good, thought-provoking post.