WARNING: POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING
Something I found today still on my computer. I wrote it about a year ago for therapy.
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This is what I remember, or can most accurately deduce.
My first concrete age memory is at nine. I know the abuse was happening for a time before that. I place my age at seven when the abuse started, because of this memory and the relative age of my brother, who would have been thirteen then and ready to experiment.
I know the abuse ended at twelve. I got my first period one month after turning thirteen, and had been maturing before then. The abuse ended when I started growing pubic hair. Dan had asked to see it, and I showed him. When he moved to do more, that is when I told him I would tell mom if he did. He never touched me sexually again.
I remember the threats. I remember being told I would be put in the hospital. I remember that if I told, Dan would go to jail, and I didn
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This is what I remember, or can most accurately deduce.
My first concrete age memory is at nine. I know the abuse was happening for a time before that. I place my age at seven when the abuse started, because of this memory and the relative age of my brother, who would have been thirteen then and ready to experiment.
I know the abuse ended at twelve. I got my first period one month after turning thirteen, and had been maturing before then. The abuse ended when I started growing pubic hair. Dan had asked to see it, and I showed him. When he moved to do more, that is when I told him I would tell mom if he did. He never touched me sexually again.
I remember the threats. I remember being told I would be put in the hospital. I remember that if I told, Dan would go to jail, and I didn