Sleepaway Camp Chapter Ten
Title: Sleepaway Camp
Author: dildoa
Pairing: Gerard Way/Frank Iero
Rating: R
POV: First, Frank Iero's
Summary: Frank has social problems and is sent away to camp. He meets a mysterious boy who is perfect in every way, well, until Frank finds out the frightening {murderous} truth.
Disclaimer: Not True
Author Notes: This one is short cause the next one is long! Well, I'm going to try and make it long lol. Sorry for the really long wait but interent has been down :( Oh, and it still is.
Beta: giveyouasmirk
Warnings: None :)
01 x 02 x 03 x 04 x 05 x 06 x 07 x 08 x 09
When I awoke the next morning, I didn't expect to be on my own. By now it had been three or four weeks since I had arrived and I was use to having a warm body next to me to hold onto. But now Gerard wasn't in bed with me. It felt cold and lonely so I had no choice but to get up. I'm sure I would have needed to soon anyway seeing as today is the day the girls are coming and we have to make a big impression. What I didn't expect was that when I was awake enough to sit up and see with out it being blurry was Gerard, freshly showered and not in his usual attire of scruffy black jeans and any old shirt. Instead he was wearing dark blue jeans that didn't have a rip in them and a black fitted button down shirt. His hair was neatly framed around his face and he just looked well, whoa!
It was obvious what he had dressed up for, the girls. I didn't understand why he wanted to make a big impression, but then I remembered that he wasn't gay, well fully gay. It kind of annoyed me that he still found girls hot; I'm no match for a girl. I guess now would be the right time to tell myself that there is no point in getting my hopes up because he obviously doesn't like me, well fuck that. He can't really expect me not to like him or think that he doesn't like me with our situation. I think I should brief this over in my head just to make sure. He has saved my ass so many times, he's overly touchy feely with me (not that that, or any of this, is a bad thing), he sleeps in the same bed as me as we snuggle, that's right snuggle! Also he has jerked me off. I think Gerard has a little more common sense than that, but unless he just likes to lead people on, then surly he wouldn't go out looking for someone else, right?
After a few moments of staring at him, Gerard noticed I was awake and shot me an over cheery smile. I could tell that he was excited for this, which, as of now, I was bummed out and not even close to excited, but if Gerard was going to get a female date to the dance, then so was I! It may have been a stupid idea seeing as I wanted Gerard to ask me but I wasn't going to look like an idiot sat on my own whilst watching my best friend have a great time. Even if I don't like girls, it was for the best.
"Come on Frankie, we got to go to the gates in an hour to meet the girls off the coach," Gerard told me, with a little gleam in his eye. I hate that gleam, well unless it's for me. But I got up anyway instead of sulking in bed, which I would have preferred to do but I had to show Gerard I didn't care, and that I can get a girl.
"Alright, I'm up!" I said grumpily as I walked into the bathroom. Before I shut myself in there, I saw Gerard face change a little at my tone but I was in too much of a bad mood to care. So much for not showing that I cared.
Half way through my shower I heard the door creak open and Gerard's voice. It was small and uncertain, like a small child's. I think I had probably hurt his feelings but he had hurt mine too, even if he wasn't meant to and didn't even know it.
"Frankie? Are you okay?" I couldn't see him fully, just a blur from the other side of the shower curtain telling me he was just on the other side of it. I didn't answer him straight away, but not because I was being stubborn, but because I was debating with myself whether I should lie to him or not. I wanted to tell him that I wasn't okay because Gerard liked girls, but I didn't want to upset him, because I know it would upset him if he knew he had upset me. He's just that type of person.
"I'm fine," I settled with just that. It was a lie but I think he knew that we both knew I wasn't. He just replied back in another soft voice okay. Then his shadow moved from behind the curtain so I could carry on with my shower. I tried to spend as long as I could in the shower just so that I didn't have to go back out there and talk to Gerard, if there was one thing I know he would do it was force the answer out of me.
Ever had one of those feelings where you're being watched? The entire time I was in the shower I had that feeling that I was, and it wasn't just a feeling that Gerard was stood close by, it was a creepy feeling and I hated it. Because of the feeling I got out the shower even thought my body could had done with the extra wash, just so Gerard could wait longer. What I wasn't expecting when I stepped out the shower fully open in the nude was Gerard sat on the closed toilet seat.
"Gerard, what the fuck are you doing?" I asked in shock, without even thinking to cover myself up. I think I might have been blushing, but I couldn't feel it in my cheeks, but I think I definitely was.
"It's not as thought I haven't seen you naked before," Gerard pointed out, actually pointed out with his hand to my dick. I looked down shamefully at myself then moved to grab a towel when Gerard stood and grabbed a hold of my wrist. "Are you going to tell me what's up your ass now?" Gerard asked. He seemed frustrated and annoyed, the way he blew the hair out of his face and leaned to one side was all the body language I needed to show me that he was pissed. I pulled hard on my wrists, ripping them right out of Gerard's grip and wrapped a towel around myself.
"Nothing!" I spat at him, he was frustrating me too now, and I just needed some time to cool down. The look in Gerard's eyes was awful to see, it was as though he had just found out that the neighbours had ran over his dog. I just tried to walk out because I couldn't stand at look at him knowing that I had made him upset.
"What did I do?" He asked. I stopped but didn't turn around, I could hear the sadness in his voice, but he wasn't crying. He sounded pained and insecure and I felt guilty. I just exhaled deeply and shook my head leaving, him alone in the bathroom. He didn't follow me out, which was probably a good thing. I needed time alone and time to get ready.
When it was time to go meet the girls I was just leaving through the cabin door when Gerard came out of the bathroom, his eyes were red like he had been rubbing them but his face wasn't tear stained so I couldn't be sure if he had been crying or not. I stopped and looked at him, and he did the same to me.
"Were you going to leave without me?" He asked, his finger pointing lazily to the door. If I had thought I had felt guilty before, then I couldn't explain what I was feeling now, but it was the worst ever. I didn't feel like I could disappoint him anymore, even if I was angry with him. So I just shook my head and held it open for him to walk through.
It was strange. Gerard and I had never been like this before; we weren't holding hands or even that close to each other. It was just more than strange, because before I came here I would never have allowed myself to get this close to someone, but I let myself with him and now everything just feels wrong, like I'm meant to be holding his hand and we're meant to be laughing and having a good time. But not now, I fucked it up with my jealousy and hurt his feelings. Damn it! Again Gerard was right, I'm so fucking selfish! As we got closer to the gates more of the campers came into view and it looked like we were the last ones here. We stood next to each other as we waited for the coach to arrive but didn't say a word or even glance at each other.
The coach filled with girls pulled in only 10 minutes later and everyone started cheering apart from Gerard and me. All the team leaders were trying to make the boys quiet down as the leader of the girls' camp got off the bus followed by all the girls. Even though we had been told that we had to make a good impression, boys will be boys, and as soon as the first girl stepped off the coach boys started to cheer again and whistle at them. I didn't deem any of them pretty so far, but then a certain girl walked past and I knew I was in trouble.
She was Gerard's dream girl. She had long flowing red hair that was the natural colour (I could just tell) and she wore little make-up and still managed to look beautiful, and I even thought she was and I'm gay. When she walked past Gerard and me, I saw her smile, and Gerard smiled back. When she was walking away Gerard was staring at her, watching the way her hips danced and hair flicked from side to side. I was royally screwed.
We weren't allowed to talk or go near the girls until they had settled in and decided that they wanted to wander around the grounds. Gerard and I had gone back to the cabin; I sat on my bed whilst Gerard watched out the window for the red head going to the lake, as that was where they all seemed to be going. We hadn't spoken since we left the cabin this morning and I think that us not talking isn't helping me. If he's not thinking about me because I'm not giving him a reason to, he will think about her and I can't let him.
"So, you got your eyes on that red head?" I asked, it didn't come out as nicely as I had thought it sounded in my head. Gerard looked at me and gave me a dirty look as if he was wondering why I was speaking to him. He looked back out of the window before he chose to answer me, it seemed I couldn't get his mind off her.
"Yeah, she seemed nice," Gerard replied. He sounded as though he wanted me to carry on though; like he had left it open for me to add something, at least he was trying.
"She was pretty too," I added. I don't know why I was saying these nice things about her, but if I had said something bad I had a feeling it wouldn't have gone down so well with Gerard, but also upon hearing me say that Gerard smiled and moved away from the window. At least he was paying more attention to me even if we were talking about her.
"She was kind of like the dream girl I told you," he said that excitedly with another gleam in his eye, "also she had a nice body, her legs were nice and long but just the right tallness for me," I thought that the best thing to do here was joke about it, if I could make him laugh then I knew I was still in there.
"She's not for me I guess then," I laughed and stood up next to Gerard comparing our heights. I wasn't short just a little smaller than Gerard, but I wouldn't go out with a girl that was taller than me anyway, well I wouldn't go out with a girl full stop. Gerard did laugh; it was a full laugh too, which made me smile. Once he stopped laughing he looked at me just stood smiling, I probably looked like an idiot but he didn't say anything about it.
"Look Frankie," I guess it's a good start that he called me Frankie, "I'm sorry about this morning, I don't really know what I did to upset you but whatever I did I'm sorry," It kind of made me feel bad that he was apologising when he hadn't done anything, but he must of felt he had which probably made him upset. He pulled me into a hug, not just a short one but a long one. I rested my head on Gerard's shoulder and breathed in and out deeply.
"Gerard, you shouldn't be sorry, I was just in a bad mood that's all," we was still hugging each other but after I had spoken Gerard pulled me to arms length and laughed.
"Jesus Frankie, I thought I had done something wrong, but all along you were just in a bad mood," he was laughing which was enough for me.
"Sorry," he laughed again and placed a kiss on my forehead then left to go back to the window. I wasn't so happy about him going back to the window but we were cool and I didn't want to ruin it again, it's better us being friends than nothing at all I guess.
-X-
It had been a while since Gerard and I had made up and we had said nothing since. He was still at the window waiting for Miss Redhead to come along and I was still on my bed, but now listening to my iPod. I was watching him though; I could see him flinch every time someone else went to the lake. But soon I couldn't hear him but could see him jump up and run around stupidly grabbing his cologne and checking himself out in the mirror. I quickly pulled my earphones out and sat up.
"Is she out there?" I asked standing up and walking to behind him.
"Yeah, so quickly put your shoes on."
"What?" I didn't understand why I had to come too; if I were to come I would probably say something I'd regret.
"You have to come too because if I go by myself she'll think I'm a loser with no friends," Gerard said. It kind of hurt but I let it slide, I had a new plan. Whilst Gerard was going to drag me along to look good I was going to get a girl myself. I went over to my bed and slide my shoes on and waited by the door for Gerard. He came rushing out of the bathroom seconds later hurrying out the door.
"Slow down Gerard, you don't want to look desperate do you?" Gerard stopped and waited for me to catch up to him, and then we set off towards the lake at a normal pace. When we arrived at the lake a lot of the other campers, both male and female, were already at the lake in their bathing suits. I didn't feel stupid for not wearing mine because I wouldn't have gone in anyway and Gerard is shy showing his body to people he doesn't really know so he wouldn't have worn one either. Gerard grabbed my wrist and pulled me to the edge of the lake to sit down. He didn't speak, I could tell he was looking out for Miss Redhead so I decided to take a look myself and see whom I could ask to go with me.
Gerard spotted her talking to some of the lads in their swim suits and she looked over at us, she was with two of her friends but as soon as she got eye contact with Gerard she pulled them over to us leaving the boys she was originally talking to annoyed. Gerard started to panic when he saw she was coming over to us.
"Shit Frank! What do I say?" I just rolled my eyes and sighed.
"Gerard, I'm gay, I don't know a thing about women," I think that was the only time Gerard had a problem with me being gay and that hurt more than him using me to come down here.
"Hi," she said oh so sickly sweet when she arrived. Okay it wasn't bad she just sounded like every other girl but I didn't like her at that moment in time. She sat down next to Gerard after he gave a small wave and her two friends followed but sitting next to me. Gerard and Miss Redhead started to talk and looked as though they were getting on nicely. One of her two friends left and I was stuck with her other friend. She was looking at me all funnily and she kept smiling. When Gerard and Miss Redhead's conversation died down I think he realised how uncomfortable I was.
"Hey, Frank do you want to go get something to eat?"
"Erm, sure," I answered. We went down to the cafeteria and got some food and sat on a four-seat table. Gerard and Miss Redhead were quiet during their meal but Sarah, as I found out was her name, kept talking to me. I know I didn't know a lot about girls but she was flirting with me and I found myself flirting back. I knew this was so I could make Gerard jealous, but I enjoyed flirting with her, it was probably just the attention I liked, not her.
Gerard did notice though, I could see him out of the corner of his eyes giving her evil looks and then when I would flirt back he would look at me with a saddened face. I didn't stop though, we flirted throughout the whole of the meal but after that, we all got told we had to go back to our cabins. As the gentlemen Gerard and I are, we walked them both back to their cabins, but at the door Sarah and Miss Redhead wouldn't go in. Gerard caught on quicker than I did and asked Miss Redhead to the ball and I did to Sarah (getting a very nasty look from Gerard as I did) they both agreed happily and then left to go to their cabins.
We started to walk in silence, we had a little bit of a walk because the girl's cabins were far away and our cabin was on the other end of the camp. Gerard was kicking stones as he walked and I jus kept my hands in my pockets.
"Did you like Sarah then?" Gerard asked looking up at me for the first time in a while.
"Yeah she was nice," I answered looking right back at him.
"Why'd you ask her to the dance? I thought you were gay?" I laughed, not because of what he had said but because he seemed so confused over it.
"I am gay, I just didn't want to go to the dance alone," He didn't answer me back; just nodded then carried on kicking stones. Their was tension between us again and I hated it, but I was too afraid to do anything about it so I just hoped Gerard could feel it too and make it stop. It was a slow progression, but he did try to make it stop. Whilst walking he gradually grew closer to me so that both our arms were touching, I no longer had my hands in my pockets at this point and he kept brushing his fingers lightly over mine. After about the tenth time of him doing it he tangled his little finger with mine and I held on tightly, it was as though we were making a pinky promise to each other; to never let go.
As it progressed, each of his fingers curled around mine until we had all our fingers interlocked and walking freely hand in hand. Once back at the cabin he still hadn't let go of my hand but instead pulled me over to my bed and lay us down on it. We were told to stay in our cabins for only a few hours whilst they set up the hall for the dance because the girls couldn't stay the entire week like all the other times but just for two nights. So the dance had been moved to tomorrow night and then they would leave the morning after.
"So are you and Miss Redhead going to keep in touch?" I asked because it had been silent for too long. We had just been lay down with me leaning on Gerard's chest as he played with my hair.
"Probably not, I think she's just going to be a one time thing," Gerard said as he ran his fingers through my hair, massaging my scalp.
"How come?" I whispered.
"Because I don't need her like I need you," he whispered back. I don't think I had ever smiled so hard in my life, a whole feeling felt as though it had gone, but then he carried on talking, "girls will come and go, but I can see that this particular girl isn't making us get along and you're my best friend Frankie, you're more important than any girl," I lifted my head up to look at him and he was smiling just as much as I was.
"Thank you,"
"What for?" He asked stroking my cheek with his thumb.
"For not ditching me for a girl," we both smiled then he pulled me down so that we could snuggle for a while, we had hours to lose anyway.
-X-
Gerard and I ended up falling asleep and not waking up till 6:27am. Gerard had groaned loudly as he woke up, waking me up at the same time. Gerard sleepily rubbed the sleep away from his eyes and leant over me to look at the clock on the side of my bed.
"Fuck, it's nearly half six in the morning," I just groaned and pulled the covers over me. Gerard followed suit, holding onto me but not trying to go back to sleep, we had slept long enough. "Excited about the dance tonight?" Gerard asked, a part of me wanted to say no because I wasn't going with him but it would have just complicated things when every thing seemed o be going right again.
"I'm not too bothered about it, I'm not that sort of person that likes these things," Gerard just chuckled slightly and nodded his head in agreement with me. He went quiet for a second; he seemed to be wondering about something, like he wanted to ask me something but not sure if he should.
"Frankie, can I ask you something?"
"Sure," he let out the breath he had been holding to ask me, I only hoped it would be to ask me to go to the dance with him instead of Miss Redhead.
"Have you been watching me in the shower?"
"What?" His question had taken me by surprise that as soon as he had finished asking I had shouted 'what?' at him. "What makes you think I've been watching you in the shower?" I asked when I had calmed down a little bit.
"Well, I keep getting these feelings as though I'm being watched, like someone is in there with me even though I know I'm on my own,"
"Well, it's not me," I said quite defensively. He shot me a look but then ignored my tone and left it. I remembered feeling watched the day before but I found out that Gerard actually was in the room with me. We decided to get up after that, the dance was tonight and we needed a lot of time (according to Gerard) to get ready.
Same day, 7:30pm
Gerard and I were waiting outside of the hall that the dance was being held in, we had agreed to meet Sarah and Miss Redhead outside of the hall but neither of them had arrived yet.
"You don't think they're blowing us off do you?" Gerard asked with a worried expression on his face.
"Gerard, girls are always fashionably late, they'll be here," I laughed and he laughed too, taking away the worried look on his face.
"And I thought you know nothing about girls, you liar!" Gerard said, faking anger in his voice. I just laughed at him and that was when Miss Redhead decided to show up.
"Sorry I'm late but I was looking for Sarah and couldn't find her anywhere," I looked over at Gerard who shot me the same 'where could she be?' look.
"Where did you last see her?" Gerard asked.
"When she went to shower, we all had to share the public ones you had outside," those showers weren't literally outside; they were in a brick building on the outskirts of the girl's cabins. Gerard nodded and turned to face me.
"Frank you take Jamie back to the cabin to see if she went back and I'll go to the showers and see if she's in their still," I nodded and set off to where Gerard had ordered I go with Jamie, or Miss Redhead, following me. We didn't speak once we got there we just checked around and when we found no Sarah, just sat and waited for Gerard to come back. It wasn't long until we heard loud footsteps and saw and out of breath Gerard fling himself into the cabin.
"I think you'd better come, and quick!" Gerard panted grabbing my hand and running back to the showers, leaving me wondering what was wrong.
Author: dildoa
Pairing: Gerard Way/Frank Iero
Rating: R
POV: First, Frank Iero's
Summary: Frank has social problems and is sent away to camp. He meets a mysterious boy who is perfect in every way, well, until Frank finds out the frightening {murderous} truth.
Disclaimer: Not True
Author Notes: This one is short cause the next one is long! Well, I'm going to try and make it long lol. Sorry for the really long wait but interent has been down :( Oh, and it still is.
Beta: giveyouasmirk
Warnings: None :)
01 x 02 x 03 x 04 x 05 x 06 x 07 x 08 x 09
When I awoke the next morning, I didn't expect to be on my own. By now it had been three or four weeks since I had arrived and I was use to having a warm body next to me to hold onto. But now Gerard wasn't in bed with me. It felt cold and lonely so I had no choice but to get up. I'm sure I would have needed to soon anyway seeing as today is the day the girls are coming and we have to make a big impression. What I didn't expect was that when I was awake enough to sit up and see with out it being blurry was Gerard, freshly showered and not in his usual attire of scruffy black jeans and any old shirt. Instead he was wearing dark blue jeans that didn't have a rip in them and a black fitted button down shirt. His hair was neatly framed around his face and he just looked well, whoa!
It was obvious what he had dressed up for, the girls. I didn't understand why he wanted to make a big impression, but then I remembered that he wasn't gay, well fully gay. It kind of annoyed me that he still found girls hot; I'm no match for a girl. I guess now would be the right time to tell myself that there is no point in getting my hopes up because he obviously doesn't like me, well fuck that. He can't really expect me not to like him or think that he doesn't like me with our situation. I think I should brief this over in my head just to make sure. He has saved my ass so many times, he's overly touchy feely with me (not that that, or any of this, is a bad thing), he sleeps in the same bed as me as we snuggle, that's right snuggle! Also he has jerked me off. I think Gerard has a little more common sense than that, but unless he just likes to lead people on, then surly he wouldn't go out looking for someone else, right?
After a few moments of staring at him, Gerard noticed I was awake and shot me an over cheery smile. I could tell that he was excited for this, which, as of now, I was bummed out and not even close to excited, but if Gerard was going to get a female date to the dance, then so was I! It may have been a stupid idea seeing as I wanted Gerard to ask me but I wasn't going to look like an idiot sat on my own whilst watching my best friend have a great time. Even if I don't like girls, it was for the best.
"Come on Frankie, we got to go to the gates in an hour to meet the girls off the coach," Gerard told me, with a little gleam in his eye. I hate that gleam, well unless it's for me. But I got up anyway instead of sulking in bed, which I would have preferred to do but I had to show Gerard I didn't care, and that I can get a girl.
"Alright, I'm up!" I said grumpily as I walked into the bathroom. Before I shut myself in there, I saw Gerard face change a little at my tone but I was in too much of a bad mood to care. So much for not showing that I cared.
Half way through my shower I heard the door creak open and Gerard's voice. It was small and uncertain, like a small child's. I think I had probably hurt his feelings but he had hurt mine too, even if he wasn't meant to and didn't even know it.
"Frankie? Are you okay?" I couldn't see him fully, just a blur from the other side of the shower curtain telling me he was just on the other side of it. I didn't answer him straight away, but not because I was being stubborn, but because I was debating with myself whether I should lie to him or not. I wanted to tell him that I wasn't okay because Gerard liked girls, but I didn't want to upset him, because I know it would upset him if he knew he had upset me. He's just that type of person.
"I'm fine," I settled with just that. It was a lie but I think he knew that we both knew I wasn't. He just replied back in another soft voice okay. Then his shadow moved from behind the curtain so I could carry on with my shower. I tried to spend as long as I could in the shower just so that I didn't have to go back out there and talk to Gerard, if there was one thing I know he would do it was force the answer out of me.
Ever had one of those feelings where you're being watched? The entire time I was in the shower I had that feeling that I was, and it wasn't just a feeling that Gerard was stood close by, it was a creepy feeling and I hated it. Because of the feeling I got out the shower even thought my body could had done with the extra wash, just so Gerard could wait longer. What I wasn't expecting when I stepped out the shower fully open in the nude was Gerard sat on the closed toilet seat.
"Gerard, what the fuck are you doing?" I asked in shock, without even thinking to cover myself up. I think I might have been blushing, but I couldn't feel it in my cheeks, but I think I definitely was.
"It's not as thought I haven't seen you naked before," Gerard pointed out, actually pointed out with his hand to my dick. I looked down shamefully at myself then moved to grab a towel when Gerard stood and grabbed a hold of my wrist. "Are you going to tell me what's up your ass now?" Gerard asked. He seemed frustrated and annoyed, the way he blew the hair out of his face and leaned to one side was all the body language I needed to show me that he was pissed. I pulled hard on my wrists, ripping them right out of Gerard's grip and wrapped a towel around myself.
"Nothing!" I spat at him, he was frustrating me too now, and I just needed some time to cool down. The look in Gerard's eyes was awful to see, it was as though he had just found out that the neighbours had ran over his dog. I just tried to walk out because I couldn't stand at look at him knowing that I had made him upset.
"What did I do?" He asked. I stopped but didn't turn around, I could hear the sadness in his voice, but he wasn't crying. He sounded pained and insecure and I felt guilty. I just exhaled deeply and shook my head leaving, him alone in the bathroom. He didn't follow me out, which was probably a good thing. I needed time alone and time to get ready.
When it was time to go meet the girls I was just leaving through the cabin door when Gerard came out of the bathroom, his eyes were red like he had been rubbing them but his face wasn't tear stained so I couldn't be sure if he had been crying or not. I stopped and looked at him, and he did the same to me.
"Were you going to leave without me?" He asked, his finger pointing lazily to the door. If I had thought I had felt guilty before, then I couldn't explain what I was feeling now, but it was the worst ever. I didn't feel like I could disappoint him anymore, even if I was angry with him. So I just shook my head and held it open for him to walk through.
It was strange. Gerard and I had never been like this before; we weren't holding hands or even that close to each other. It was just more than strange, because before I came here I would never have allowed myself to get this close to someone, but I let myself with him and now everything just feels wrong, like I'm meant to be holding his hand and we're meant to be laughing and having a good time. But not now, I fucked it up with my jealousy and hurt his feelings. Damn it! Again Gerard was right, I'm so fucking selfish! As we got closer to the gates more of the campers came into view and it looked like we were the last ones here. We stood next to each other as we waited for the coach to arrive but didn't say a word or even glance at each other.
The coach filled with girls pulled in only 10 minutes later and everyone started cheering apart from Gerard and me. All the team leaders were trying to make the boys quiet down as the leader of the girls' camp got off the bus followed by all the girls. Even though we had been told that we had to make a good impression, boys will be boys, and as soon as the first girl stepped off the coach boys started to cheer again and whistle at them. I didn't deem any of them pretty so far, but then a certain girl walked past and I knew I was in trouble.
She was Gerard's dream girl. She had long flowing red hair that was the natural colour (I could just tell) and she wore little make-up and still managed to look beautiful, and I even thought she was and I'm gay. When she walked past Gerard and me, I saw her smile, and Gerard smiled back. When she was walking away Gerard was staring at her, watching the way her hips danced and hair flicked from side to side. I was royally screwed.
We weren't allowed to talk or go near the girls until they had settled in and decided that they wanted to wander around the grounds. Gerard and I had gone back to the cabin; I sat on my bed whilst Gerard watched out the window for the red head going to the lake, as that was where they all seemed to be going. We hadn't spoken since we left the cabin this morning and I think that us not talking isn't helping me. If he's not thinking about me because I'm not giving him a reason to, he will think about her and I can't let him.
"So, you got your eyes on that red head?" I asked, it didn't come out as nicely as I had thought it sounded in my head. Gerard looked at me and gave me a dirty look as if he was wondering why I was speaking to him. He looked back out of the window before he chose to answer me, it seemed I couldn't get his mind off her.
"Yeah, she seemed nice," Gerard replied. He sounded as though he wanted me to carry on though; like he had left it open for me to add something, at least he was trying.
"She was pretty too," I added. I don't know why I was saying these nice things about her, but if I had said something bad I had a feeling it wouldn't have gone down so well with Gerard, but also upon hearing me say that Gerard smiled and moved away from the window. At least he was paying more attention to me even if we were talking about her.
"She was kind of like the dream girl I told you," he said that excitedly with another gleam in his eye, "also she had a nice body, her legs were nice and long but just the right tallness for me," I thought that the best thing to do here was joke about it, if I could make him laugh then I knew I was still in there.
"She's not for me I guess then," I laughed and stood up next to Gerard comparing our heights. I wasn't short just a little smaller than Gerard, but I wouldn't go out with a girl that was taller than me anyway, well I wouldn't go out with a girl full stop. Gerard did laugh; it was a full laugh too, which made me smile. Once he stopped laughing he looked at me just stood smiling, I probably looked like an idiot but he didn't say anything about it.
"Look Frankie," I guess it's a good start that he called me Frankie, "I'm sorry about this morning, I don't really know what I did to upset you but whatever I did I'm sorry," It kind of made me feel bad that he was apologising when he hadn't done anything, but he must of felt he had which probably made him upset. He pulled me into a hug, not just a short one but a long one. I rested my head on Gerard's shoulder and breathed in and out deeply.
"Gerard, you shouldn't be sorry, I was just in a bad mood that's all," we was still hugging each other but after I had spoken Gerard pulled me to arms length and laughed.
"Jesus Frankie, I thought I had done something wrong, but all along you were just in a bad mood," he was laughing which was enough for me.
"Sorry," he laughed again and placed a kiss on my forehead then left to go back to the window. I wasn't so happy about him going back to the window but we were cool and I didn't want to ruin it again, it's better us being friends than nothing at all I guess.
-X-
It had been a while since Gerard and I had made up and we had said nothing since. He was still at the window waiting for Miss Redhead to come along and I was still on my bed, but now listening to my iPod. I was watching him though; I could see him flinch every time someone else went to the lake. But soon I couldn't hear him but could see him jump up and run around stupidly grabbing his cologne and checking himself out in the mirror. I quickly pulled my earphones out and sat up.
"Is she out there?" I asked standing up and walking to behind him.
"Yeah, so quickly put your shoes on."
"What?" I didn't understand why I had to come too; if I were to come I would probably say something I'd regret.
"You have to come too because if I go by myself she'll think I'm a loser with no friends," Gerard said. It kind of hurt but I let it slide, I had a new plan. Whilst Gerard was going to drag me along to look good I was going to get a girl myself. I went over to my bed and slide my shoes on and waited by the door for Gerard. He came rushing out of the bathroom seconds later hurrying out the door.
"Slow down Gerard, you don't want to look desperate do you?" Gerard stopped and waited for me to catch up to him, and then we set off towards the lake at a normal pace. When we arrived at the lake a lot of the other campers, both male and female, were already at the lake in their bathing suits. I didn't feel stupid for not wearing mine because I wouldn't have gone in anyway and Gerard is shy showing his body to people he doesn't really know so he wouldn't have worn one either. Gerard grabbed my wrist and pulled me to the edge of the lake to sit down. He didn't speak, I could tell he was looking out for Miss Redhead so I decided to take a look myself and see whom I could ask to go with me.
Gerard spotted her talking to some of the lads in their swim suits and she looked over at us, she was with two of her friends but as soon as she got eye contact with Gerard she pulled them over to us leaving the boys she was originally talking to annoyed. Gerard started to panic when he saw she was coming over to us.
"Shit Frank! What do I say?" I just rolled my eyes and sighed.
"Gerard, I'm gay, I don't know a thing about women," I think that was the only time Gerard had a problem with me being gay and that hurt more than him using me to come down here.
"Hi," she said oh so sickly sweet when she arrived. Okay it wasn't bad she just sounded like every other girl but I didn't like her at that moment in time. She sat down next to Gerard after he gave a small wave and her two friends followed but sitting next to me. Gerard and Miss Redhead started to talk and looked as though they were getting on nicely. One of her two friends left and I was stuck with her other friend. She was looking at me all funnily and she kept smiling. When Gerard and Miss Redhead's conversation died down I think he realised how uncomfortable I was.
"Hey, Frank do you want to go get something to eat?"
"Erm, sure," I answered. We went down to the cafeteria and got some food and sat on a four-seat table. Gerard and Miss Redhead were quiet during their meal but Sarah, as I found out was her name, kept talking to me. I know I didn't know a lot about girls but she was flirting with me and I found myself flirting back. I knew this was so I could make Gerard jealous, but I enjoyed flirting with her, it was probably just the attention I liked, not her.
Gerard did notice though, I could see him out of the corner of his eyes giving her evil looks and then when I would flirt back he would look at me with a saddened face. I didn't stop though, we flirted throughout the whole of the meal but after that, we all got told we had to go back to our cabins. As the gentlemen Gerard and I are, we walked them both back to their cabins, but at the door Sarah and Miss Redhead wouldn't go in. Gerard caught on quicker than I did and asked Miss Redhead to the ball and I did to Sarah (getting a very nasty look from Gerard as I did) they both agreed happily and then left to go to their cabins.
We started to walk in silence, we had a little bit of a walk because the girl's cabins were far away and our cabin was on the other end of the camp. Gerard was kicking stones as he walked and I jus kept my hands in my pockets.
"Did you like Sarah then?" Gerard asked looking up at me for the first time in a while.
"Yeah she was nice," I answered looking right back at him.
"Why'd you ask her to the dance? I thought you were gay?" I laughed, not because of what he had said but because he seemed so confused over it.
"I am gay, I just didn't want to go to the dance alone," He didn't answer me back; just nodded then carried on kicking stones. Their was tension between us again and I hated it, but I was too afraid to do anything about it so I just hoped Gerard could feel it too and make it stop. It was a slow progression, but he did try to make it stop. Whilst walking he gradually grew closer to me so that both our arms were touching, I no longer had my hands in my pockets at this point and he kept brushing his fingers lightly over mine. After about the tenth time of him doing it he tangled his little finger with mine and I held on tightly, it was as though we were making a pinky promise to each other; to never let go.
As it progressed, each of his fingers curled around mine until we had all our fingers interlocked and walking freely hand in hand. Once back at the cabin he still hadn't let go of my hand but instead pulled me over to my bed and lay us down on it. We were told to stay in our cabins for only a few hours whilst they set up the hall for the dance because the girls couldn't stay the entire week like all the other times but just for two nights. So the dance had been moved to tomorrow night and then they would leave the morning after.
"So are you and Miss Redhead going to keep in touch?" I asked because it had been silent for too long. We had just been lay down with me leaning on Gerard's chest as he played with my hair.
"Probably not, I think she's just going to be a one time thing," Gerard said as he ran his fingers through my hair, massaging my scalp.
"How come?" I whispered.
"Because I don't need her like I need you," he whispered back. I don't think I had ever smiled so hard in my life, a whole feeling felt as though it had gone, but then he carried on talking, "girls will come and go, but I can see that this particular girl isn't making us get along and you're my best friend Frankie, you're more important than any girl," I lifted my head up to look at him and he was smiling just as much as I was.
"Thank you,"
"What for?" He asked stroking my cheek with his thumb.
"For not ditching me for a girl," we both smiled then he pulled me down so that we could snuggle for a while, we had hours to lose anyway.
-X-
Gerard and I ended up falling asleep and not waking up till 6:27am. Gerard had groaned loudly as he woke up, waking me up at the same time. Gerard sleepily rubbed the sleep away from his eyes and leant over me to look at the clock on the side of my bed.
"Fuck, it's nearly half six in the morning," I just groaned and pulled the covers over me. Gerard followed suit, holding onto me but not trying to go back to sleep, we had slept long enough. "Excited about the dance tonight?" Gerard asked, a part of me wanted to say no because I wasn't going with him but it would have just complicated things when every thing seemed o be going right again.
"I'm not too bothered about it, I'm not that sort of person that likes these things," Gerard just chuckled slightly and nodded his head in agreement with me. He went quiet for a second; he seemed to be wondering about something, like he wanted to ask me something but not sure if he should.
"Frankie, can I ask you something?"
"Sure," he let out the breath he had been holding to ask me, I only hoped it would be to ask me to go to the dance with him instead of Miss Redhead.
"Have you been watching me in the shower?"
"What?" His question had taken me by surprise that as soon as he had finished asking I had shouted 'what?' at him. "What makes you think I've been watching you in the shower?" I asked when I had calmed down a little bit.
"Well, I keep getting these feelings as though I'm being watched, like someone is in there with me even though I know I'm on my own,"
"Well, it's not me," I said quite defensively. He shot me a look but then ignored my tone and left it. I remembered feeling watched the day before but I found out that Gerard actually was in the room with me. We decided to get up after that, the dance was tonight and we needed a lot of time (according to Gerard) to get ready.
Same day, 7:30pm
Gerard and I were waiting outside of the hall that the dance was being held in, we had agreed to meet Sarah and Miss Redhead outside of the hall but neither of them had arrived yet.
"You don't think they're blowing us off do you?" Gerard asked with a worried expression on his face.
"Gerard, girls are always fashionably late, they'll be here," I laughed and he laughed too, taking away the worried look on his face.
"And I thought you know nothing about girls, you liar!" Gerard said, faking anger in his voice. I just laughed at him and that was when Miss Redhead decided to show up.
"Sorry I'm late but I was looking for Sarah and couldn't find her anywhere," I looked over at Gerard who shot me the same 'where could she be?' look.
"Where did you last see her?" Gerard asked.
"When she went to shower, we all had to share the public ones you had outside," those showers weren't literally outside; they were in a brick building on the outskirts of the girl's cabins. Gerard nodded and turned to face me.
"Frank you take Jamie back to the cabin to see if she went back and I'll go to the showers and see if she's in their still," I nodded and set off to where Gerard had ordered I go with Jamie, or Miss Redhead, following me. We didn't speak once we got there we just checked around and when we found no Sarah, just sat and waited for Gerard to come back. It wasn't long until we heard loud footsteps and saw and out of breath Gerard fling himself into the cabin.
"I think you'd better come, and quick!" Gerard panted grabbing my hand and running back to the showers, leaving me wondering what was wrong.