:(
ugh so now im deppressed, cause i really want Jeffery (Taurus)
:'(
and of course what you want you cant have
and that seems to be the story of my life and well
i just cant handle that anymoree. :(
Ugh and im sleeing over Moises' house today with Eric Kitty :l
there fun....but loud
(and im deppressed so of course thats a "snap worthy" notion for me :/ )
:( i feel weird now realing on livejournal to help stop my depression
seeing as how it's the only real journal im using for now :( it's just eh
Being a single gay for so longmakes me hurt more than i think
for now im just eh, trying to pretend that im okay, covering up
faking it like Fai :'(( how he did it for so long who knows :(
ugh i just really want to make Jeffery mine, cause Angel isnt even a possiabilty anymore.
i really just need something (someone) to help pick me up
but thats too much to ask for
and as for a realtionship i feel like that the people who can get them
are the ones that have something to offer someone
and i just dont have something to offer anyone
because the ones that i long for the most already read me like a book
I have many blank and hidden pages and people give up or just see my cover
i wish i could be better looking, be more attractive, or even just a bit more confident
but of course i dont get anything i just get to steal... :/ great...
Love is commonly known as something good ;; but for every good there is a negitive ;;
Love's negitive is the pain you endure, but people like me endure pain for no reason at all
it makes no sence at all to love what you cant get but i feel that it's because i cant
get them and i know that, that im willing to hurt myself by doing that.
Maybe because i feel and know that im not good enough for the person i like, and sadly thats why i become clingy in the desperate act of wanting someone to notice that i need love and even though im willing to give my love to the fullest i just can't anymoree because im not good enough for someone to do such with me as well. :/
GO FIGURE!
well it's what ever because in the end we all die, and im bound to die soon.
(:
My friend monique asked me "since your moving on from Angel do i get to talk to him more"
yea... HA! she can get him and it worries me because im jelouse
and im sure not afraid to stop talking to her -_-
i think i should because she really isnt helping me act any better.
id prefer to just stop talking to everyone but it's a eh case i guese. :/
well we'll see what it comes down too? because honestly i need a ciggerete
:/ like two and some soda, and ice cream and love.... :(
ugh i just cant handle my feelings :////
:'(
and of course what you want you cant have
and that seems to be the story of my life and well
i just cant handle that anymoree. :(
Ugh and im sleeing over Moises' house today with Eric Kitty :l
there fun....but loud
(and im deppressed so of course thats a "snap worthy" notion for me :/ )
:( i feel weird now realing on livejournal to help stop my depression
seeing as how it's the only real journal im using for now :( it's just eh
Being a single gay for so longmakes me hurt more than i think
for now im just eh, trying to pretend that im okay, covering up
faking it like Fai :'(( how he did it for so long who knows :(
ugh i just really want to make Jeffery mine, cause Angel isnt even a possiabilty anymore.
i really just need something (someone) to help pick me up
but thats too much to ask for
and as for a realtionship i feel like that the people who can get them
are the ones that have something to offer someone
and i just dont have something to offer anyone
because the ones that i long for the most already read me like a book
I have many blank and hidden pages and people give up or just see my cover
i wish i could be better looking, be more attractive, or even just a bit more confident
but of course i dont get anything i just get to steal... :/ great...
Love is commonly known as something good ;; but for every good there is a negitive ;;
Love's negitive is the pain you endure, but people like me endure pain for no reason at all
it makes no sence at all to love what you cant get but i feel that it's because i cant
get them and i know that, that im willing to hurt myself by doing that.
Maybe because i feel and know that im not good enough for the person i like, and sadly thats why i become clingy in the desperate act of wanting someone to notice that i need love and even though im willing to give my love to the fullest i just can't anymoree because im not good enough for someone to do such with me as well. :/
GO FIGURE!
well it's what ever because in the end we all die, and im bound to die soon.
(:
My friend monique asked me "since your moving on from Angel do i get to talk to him more"
yea... HA! she can get him and it worries me because im jelouse
and im sure not afraid to stop talking to her -_-
i think i should because she really isnt helping me act any better.
id prefer to just stop talking to everyone but it's a eh case i guese. :/
well we'll see what it comes down too? because honestly i need a ciggerete
:/ like two and some soda, and ice cream and love.... :(
ugh i just cant handle my feelings :////