why are you here
if all i do is piss you off anoy you and you dont trust me then why the hell are you here. love? dont say love.... if your gona love me love me for who i am not what you think i can be... what you see is what you get i am me. this is who i am. im gonna piss you off (alot) im gonna anoy you. im gonna get jellous. get the fuck over it. you do a lot to get jellous of. and its not like you help it at all with the hole fucking with my inscuritys thing.... or makeing me feel OMG overly selfcouncious.....and u wounder why the sex went from amazing to nothing worth talking about.....maybe its beacuse i no longer have any self asteem no pride...... compleetly emascluated.... all i am is the glorafied babysitter.roof over your head... or heater....dont get me wrong i love to cuddle....but i also like feeling like more then a babysitter. i like to feel like im wanted.but i dont feel that way. your always threting to leave.. in one way or another. always complaining about being here. no servis the internet sucks. school is your excape you wish you had your own life. oh hay this person said i can still rent from him. you say you didnt chose to come out here you would rather be by ur family..... btw you did choose to come here. i offered and you said yes.i asked if you were sure. over and over agine.and you still said yes. IM NOT HOLDING YOU HERE. YOUR FREE TO LEAVE IF YOU WANT. if you dont wanna be here then leave im not gonna make you stay. granted id love it if you did stay but i want you to stay beacuse you want to not beacuse you feel you need to....i love you. always have always will and ill respect your wishes if you wanna go. dont blam ya if you did. no one can put up with me more then a few months any way. im used to it. actualy i for see it.happens the same way each and every time. once people start realizing im anoying as hell. and verry distant but clingy at the same time. they go. only ben 4 that have lasted longer then 6 months and not to many others have loasted longer then 3.think you can do better? am i worth wasting the time one. huh...dought it.im not worth your time...or anyones.. you would be surprized at how many have dumped me after just a day...just know when i said i loved you i ment it.andi just want you happy. so if your not happy then go. be happy. beacuse im not leaving. i finaly just got my shit togeather and idk if im even gonna make it. so if you wanna go id sugust getting out befor i fail.dont get me wrong i want you here i love you. and i dont want you to go.but if your unhappy im not stoping you. im not chasing you. im tired of chasing people.its pointless. if ya gotta chase them there gonna leave sonner or later....