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8:40. I want to DO something. BE with someone. I don't know. I feel so stupid just sitting at home. I need to be out. I'm restless. I just want to run as far away as I can. Just sprint and run away from everything. I want to go sleep on the ground somewhere and wake up with leaves in my hair. I don't know. I just feel so damn restless. That's why I need to dance. But I don't really think that would get this energy out. Fish invited me to go bowling with him and some other guys but they'll all be smoking and I don't want to smell like shit.
I feel so lifeless. And that's weird for me because usually I'm so energetic. But. Today I'm just down. There was this party I was going to go to but then I get this call from my friend and it just. Pissed me the fuck off. He calls me up and goes, "Hey slutface. You're coming tonight right? Yeeeeeah. Let's hook up and get fucking TRASHED." And so yeah. I'm not going anymore. No way am I going to put up with bullshit from horny 20 year olds. They can fuck eachother. I'm not interested. Maybe that's why I'm down? I hate getting calls from people like that. Hate it. I'm not like that. God. I hate men with everything I have. All they do is strive to hurt you. It's like some fucking goal. I can't take anymore bullshit. I won't take it anymore. The next time I get groped by some fucking asshole I'm going to freak out. I can't wait to get away. I don't ever want to come back here. =/ Ever.
Is it wrong? Wanting to run away and never look back?
I feel so lifeless. And that's weird for me because usually I'm so energetic. But. Today I'm just down. There was this party I was going to go to but then I get this call from my friend and it just. Pissed me the fuck off. He calls me up and goes, "Hey slutface. You're coming tonight right? Yeeeeeah. Let's hook up and get fucking TRASHED." And so yeah. I'm not going anymore. No way am I going to put up with bullshit from horny 20 year olds. They can fuck eachother. I'm not interested. Maybe that's why I'm down? I hate getting calls from people like that. Hate it. I'm not like that. God. I hate men with everything I have. All they do is strive to hurt you. It's like some fucking goal. I can't take anymore bullshit. I won't take it anymore. The next time I get groped by some fucking asshole I'm going to freak out. I can't wait to get away. I don't ever want to come back here. =/ Ever.
Is it wrong? Wanting to run away and never look back?