this weekend
went to the fetish factory party, it rocked!! pictures will be posted soon. no vanillas were allowed. fetish gear only. saw them turn several away for not waeribg the right dress code. though things should be good all feels so hopeless. i should be happpy i dont know why i feel so hopeless. panic atacks tightness in the chest. someetimes i feel like maybe i should sign that contract and just move to south carolina and be in a year of servitude. i just dont know. i wish i could be happy. so many people out there are two faced, guess i should have listened.