Christianity and what not....

[zoestarbrite]

I was suppose to go to Church with Jennifer tonight. Somewhat of a "Korean United Presbyterian Church" Reunion. At first I was excited to see everyone, witness the people they've all become. Doctors, Lawyers, Psychologist, Mothers and Fathers. I'm proud of their success. After sometime of contemplating this gathering,  I became apprehensive about this lil reunion. Im proud and enthusiastic about my own personal journey, however, based on my experience with the coffee dates I've had with each of them over the years, I already knew what were to take place if I showed up.... They would all gang up on me, challenge my UN-conventional beliefs, damn me to hell, and then have a prayer meeting as some vain attempt to revive my lost soul.Usually and mostly out of respect love and understanding, I  allow this type of freak show to take place, but tonight I was in no mood for it. I mean, I've come to realize that no matter how much I respect their beliefs because I love them and they are my friends, they will NEVER actually listen to how life works for me. I may have an abundance of respect and understanding for them, but the church has made them too prideful to give me the same respect. In their eyes, Im a sinner, Im lost, my own personal journey is one of abomination to the lord or some crazy shit like that.In the bigger scheme of things, this ignorance isn't right and shouldn't be tolerated. But considering I  was once one of them, I know exactly how they think so I usually tolerate it. I've attempted to address my own enlightenment; I've used Christian Lingo that they can relate to, I've compared Biblical passages to other world religions which illustrate the same philosophies. But, they don't want to hear any of it. So, maybe one day I will go back for a reunion, but, today just wasn't that day....... Some people tell me that I have a resentment toward Christianity and the church because I poke fun at it with a very dry sense of humor. I really don't resent them.. The way I see it, to each their own! I know what set of beliefs work for me and I fully allow others entitlement to whatever beliefs work for them. I cherish open-minded conversation about the topic, I just don't appreciate being preached at without the respect of hearing my beliefs as well..

In other news.. My sister Nicole bailed on me today. =( Everyone told me that she would but I totally stuck up for her thinking that she's grown up now and wouldn't do that. Im a lil sad BUT I also understand. Her and I are sooo alike in the way that we are both total flakes! So, I couldn't really expect too much from her considering I myself live from moment to moment which makes it difficult to make plans.