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sitting on the deck. it's cool out here on my sunburn. my headache refuses to subside, so i'm attempting to enjoy the night despite.
there's not much to enjoy when you're thinking about someone you care deeply for and are worried half ill over.
i made sun-tea today. ginkgo biloba peppermint sun-tea. when i was growing up, my mum would always ask me to make the sun-tea. she said mine always tasted the best. that's a loving memory of my mother. rare, and therefore all the more reason to write it down.
the birds out here are overly energised this evening. so many chirps and squeals and the occasional song. one bird has a magnificent terra cotta belly. i think it's the one having the most fun. it jumps from branch to branch and in and out of the berry bushes and down to the lawn. it's times like this that i want someone to share it all with. just sitting, relaxing, and taking it all in, all with a glass of freshly brewed sun-tea, listening to michael buble, and just being in each other's presence.
i no longer have a toilet. well, the toilet is there, but it's been drained and removed and now sits in the middle of the WC. maybe i will get a finished bathroom before i move out...
i'm a bit overwhelmed in my world. i can't focus long enough on anything to make any sense of it all. from experience, i know that life is anything but easy. i wish my heart could grasp that concept. it wants so badly to be loved and understood, but it's too impatient. it doesn't see the intricacies of our situation.
the bugs are out. i'm going in.