❲ 01st angel; VOICE ❳

[quantapathos]

[  once he's further examined his surroundings , Kaworu settles down, exploring the functions of the device and familiarizing himself with as many aspects of it as he can. the locked section of it raised a brow once he tried to open it but he isn't very concerned presently, instead taking stock of the other pilgrims to this foreign prison

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♡VOICE.

[quantapathos]

[ indeed-- the remaining question being whether those 'good things' are worth his waiting for. he thinks they might be, however, so for now he will continue to do so. ]

At least in that manner, this place should provide a good venue for you to do that in-- the same goes for me, of course.

[ never!! ]

I have heard that the act of sex brings great joy to some people, as well as eases the suffering of others. I am not sure, but if referred to as 'worship', as it has been, one would assume that this culmination of feelings bestows some sort of power to the gods...or at the very least, something to the world. Considering how little we have to go on-- the notes, the dreams, the messages, it is hard to say presently.

As I have said before, I am unworried. Looking past the private implications of it and whether I will have to participate or not, this is just another way for me to observe the reactions and living of people.

[ hmm, but. there is what N said before. and he is curious. the other may seem naive but the wonderment left is just how much of that is not minding and how much is honest unknowing. the difference between the two is, of course, what he can get out of it. ]

N, are you without a friend from home here?

[freed]

[the rewards are interesting if nothing else, as the purest of hearts should be.]

Is that so?

[the curiosity is genuine, the astonishment every bit as real as everything else he does and thinks and feels.]

I must say I can't imagine what sort of feelings sex would entail, but that's most likely due to my never having it before. I did learn recently, however, that it is possible for two males and two females to engage in intercourse and it is not limited to a male and female. That too makes it interesting, so I'm starting to understand that the correlation between sex and feelings is indeed a strong one.

[it's difficult not to mind something so complex without any prior knowledge, so N is almost painfully childish in this sense. however, that at least reduces the chances of him enduring any trauma, if it's any consolation.

a hint of sadness seeps into his tone, and he pauses for a moment to think about his hero in unova, his dragon's missing half.]

I am afraid not. I had only one human friend from home and...

[the good humor soon returns, though evidently with some effort on N's part. his other is not someone he wants to talk about too much due to the equation relating to them being incomplete still.]

Well, needless to say, they are not here, so as far as I know I am alone.

voice > video

[quantapathos]

Yes, it is incredibly curious. While I do not have much experience either [ yeah he's totally admitting that! ] it's interesting to attempt to understand how such things would take place, even if it were not with myself directly. For an example, the term "scissoring" between two females is hard for me to wrap my head around, but that does not negate that it exists and is practiced. Similarly, there are close relatives between men that in theory should be more excessive to explore, though I do not find myself particularly inclined to do so at the moment. All are facts that are simply inaccessible to me at the present time.

[ yep...

Kaworu stills his speech at the second part of what N said, however, tone turning careful, precarious to whatever that difference in tone might mean. ]

I see.

[ a beat, and after a shuffling sound, the feed turns to VIDEO displaying a smile playing at his lips, face a little too close. ]

There is no need to consider yourself entirely alone, even barring Zoroark's presence here.

[ HINT HINT ]

♡VOICE → VIDEO.

[freed]

Scissoring, you say? That sounds quite dangerous.

[a perplexed noise.]

Truth be told, I cannot fathom how two females go about having sexual intercourse either since both are distinctly lacking in penises. I imagine it would be indecent to ask how such a thing would work over the network, too. Matters of simple attraction go over my head as well. I was not in a position where thinking about such things was lucrative to my goal, but I did know of the male and female partnership because of my extensive knowledge of Pokémon breeding. The concept of two males and two females forming emotional bonds and having sex as a result of those bonds is rather new to me.

[the change in tone, the carefulness and deliberation behind it, don't go amiss to him, but kaworu is his friend and is only thinking of his feelings, right? he's not sure, N has more trust issues than someone so childminded ought to be, but the life waiting for him back home is painfully overwhelming at times.

he watches the feed for a moment, kaworu's smile taking up his screen and again he thinks about his legendary hero, the strife they endured and the way he called touya's name out after losing everything.

the whole thing leaves a bad taste in his mouth.

but N puts on a smile, small and thoughtful and gentle, before turning his own camera on to greet his companion.]

Those are very kind words, and I do appreciate them.

[his expression brightens slightly when he chuckles inwardly, but his eyes, as always, lack the distinct sheen of life that he may not have ever possessed.]

Perhaps I should put a bit more trust in those around me?

[he doesn't get it, oops.........]

♡VIDEO.

[quantapathos]

I suppose it may very well stay a mystery to us...unfortunately.

[ he has a few more theories on this 'scissoring' thing, but he'll keep them to himself for now. Lilin sure are interesting!!!

pokémon...? the term is wholly unfamiliar, but going by breeding and the like, it must be an animal of some sort-- although the concept of 'breeding' is rather constrained in his mind to that of producing livestock, so...

hm.

Kaworu pulls the device back to a more normal distance, resting it on his knees, drawn up to his chest. he takes in N's expression at once, follows the quirked line of his mouth to his eyes which, as said, are a little mismatched from everything. peculiar, but the other is still a stranger, and there could be any manner of ulterior reasons for it, so he puts it out of mind to speak, tone more inviting. ]

In a way, you could say that's what I meant.

[ he pauses for a second before-- ]

--although I was aiming for something a little more specific.

[ facepalm.gif ]

♡VIDEO.

[freed]

I am afraid I don't follow if that's the case.

[N is a grade A social recluse so anything other than the blunt truth is probably going to go amiss to him. oopsies. he seems to know this though, if his good-humored smile is any indicator.]

♡VIDEO.

[quantapathos]

[ wow, he's more...he doesn't know how to label N, actually, so he just says it flat out: ]

What I meant is that you are not as alone as you might think. You're talking to me right now, correct? I've sad before that I consider you a friend, N, haven't I? To reiterate myself further; even given how recently we have met, there is no need to hesitate to contact me, should you feel the need to do so.

[ :3c ]

That is what friends are for, as far as I understand.

♡VIDEO.

[freed]

[a small blink as he processes that statement, and one could make the mistake of thinking that N doesn't know what friendship is. in a way he doesn't, never having formally adopted the title of friend with the chosen hero, nor was that particular relationship traditional.]

We are friends?

[he supposes it makes sense, and he does care quite a lot about kaworu, would extend the same gestures to him. the thought actually makes him quite happy, knowing that he has made and appears to be able to provide for a friend, and it's evident in the way the smile he gives kaworu reaches the corners of his eyes.]

That pleases me quite a bit to hear. I believe that makes you my first official friend in Zodion.

♡VIDEO.

[quantapathos]

[ in that way, something similar could be said of Kaworu. he won't show it easily, however. it's too intimate a detail to share. ]

Yes, we are-- if you don't mind my saying so.

[ what could really constitute as a friend, here? or in general? he isn't sure, but he does feel some sort of draw towards the other, whether it's how mysteriously similar he feels to himself, or simply by more natural means. there is, of course the possibility to use N, should he become that trusting in him (and Kaworu isn't above that, if it furthers his own living), but such an idea isn't needed currently. ]

--ah, and you mine.

[ he's tempted to say Izaya was first, but there's something distinctly different there that he can't put his finger on...furthermore, Kaworu doubts Izaya would echo the feeling. ]

While I hope we both acquire many contacts in this world throughout our stay, as is likely to be very beneficial, it pleases very much to say so.

L M F A O BETTER LATE THAN NEVER RIGHT

[freed]

[he's deliighted, really-- a little flattery will get one anywhere they want when it comes to N, a child starved of the human touch and willing to do whatever it takes to draw as much energy as he can if it will ferry him away from the weight of the rubble at the site of his fallen castle.]

I would be happy to call you my friend, Kaworu.

[N thinks izaya is kind of a shithead so don't tell him that.]

I have met many people since my arrival here, but truthfully, the way I feel towards you is quite distinct. You have been quite kind to me, so to call you my friend makes me quite happy.

Y E P

[quantapathos]

[ honestly he might be inclined to agree-- he doesn't doubt it will only continue down that line in the future, but something could be said for his fascination with those types... ]

I am happy to hear that.

[ --'happy' might be overdoing it, but he does feel satisfied with the response, at least. ]

I would like to see you again in the future.

[ --Kaworu says, rather abruptly. it's true-- there's something bizarre, almost a little uncomfortably similar between them, and he'd like to observe it. this is, of course, overlooking his personal interest in the other, but... analysis over attraction. ]

Would you mind if I contact you to do so, N?

[freed]

[abrupt, sure, but N doesn't mind it, his eager nod a testament to how deeply his trust in kaworu runs.]

Of course. Any time, anywhere-- if it is you calling for me, I will be happy to answer.

[and he doesn't think twice about the gravity of his words because him and kaworu are friends, something N considers precious and sacred, a person for which he would do absolutely anything for.]

[quantapathos]

I see. [ Kaworu's reply is instantaneous, his smile twitching upwards. ] I will, then. The same offer is extended to you, of course.

[ device balanced on his knees, he brings his hands up to rest at the back of his neck, leaning forward to peer at the screen amiably.

this...feeling. is it friendship? surely, it isn't the same as he'd felt with Shinji, but could he really have called that 'friendship' in the first place? no, maybe something deeper.

...regardless, there is a spark of feeling within him, even if he cannot grasp it entirely. ]

We are...'friends', after all.

[freed]

I will do my best not to inconvenience you.

[part of him sees it as a shame that the person he is closest to in this world can't, so far, hold a candle to touya, but then again kaworu didn't introduce him to a blue-skied world, is but a proponent in a grand formula rather than the answer. N wonders if he is afraid, afraid of becoming close to people again and being betrayed once more to those closest to him, though he's quick to admit he wouldn't deign to call his seven sages close at all.

maybe this will be good for him, putting his trust in kaworu. surely, this friend of his would never seek to use him or do him wrongly? they're friends.

that's right. they're friends.]

I am still learning the many ways in which humans can interact, but I'm certain friendship with humans is the same as friendship with Pokémon. There is still much I need to learn though, so I hope I do not dwindle your patience over time because of this.

[quantapathos]

You will not, I am sure.

[ isn't all Lilin friendship a type of use? to depend on someone, even at its base is a selfish action, pulling from another to sustain yourself. at least, that's what he's come to believe-- perhaps it could be shaken. relatively, N isn't Shinji-- N doesn't convince him on some level that maybe he was born to meet the other on terms other than the methodical, something emotional and deep within him.

...that doesn't mean he cannot become close to others, though. he's sure of it. 'attachment' may not be a the correct word in terms of emotion, but there are certainly sparse individuals here he feels some entitlement to.

for now, he feels no regret in accepting N's trust fully, whether it leads to his use to him or not. there isn't a plan; no forced hand from Seele or others pulling him along to some great choice-- no, this is of his own will, and thus vague.

-friends. they are friends. ]

It is a certainty in my mind that we will progress together, at least on some level. I hope to learn much with you.

[ a pause, and his inflection-filled voice turns to something more gentle, openly amiable: ]

Until then, N...take care.