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have you ever reached that point of desparation, late at night, alone in your bed, when you feel so lonely and helpless? you wonder if you will ever find that person that you have been told is out there - that person that is the yang to your yin, or vice versa? your dream guy/girl, your soulmate? do you ever sit on the couch and eventually turn off the tv, because even that does not satisfy your boredom? do you keep the phone close by your side, hoping that he or she, or just SOMEONE will call? do you think tonight will be the night, and you get ready to go out, picking out something to wear that will make you look good, hoping to appeal to that person? and you sit by the phone, until you are too tired to stay up any longer, so you go to bed and cry yourself to sleep because you are still alone, and the rest of the world seems to have forgotten that you, in fact, do exist and have the capacity to feel? and that is such a precious thing, it seems, in this day and age, and it leads you to wonder what your place in all this really is. you close your eyes, because sleep is what is expected - that's the norm when it comes to night time. it's just that you wish you had someone to sleep with tonight, because the temperature is low, and you feel like you don't want to have to spend the night shivering. you want something of flesh and blood, something warm to hold onto. you want another person to be next to you so you can wake up and not have to face the day alone.