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it's weird how expressions of love seem tantamount to any relationship once you're in one. but, if you ever find yourself in such an odd position as to be lacking these expressions, love is no longer so simple. it is no longer something you whisper in someone's ear. a note left as you sneak out to work in the morning. or even a tight squeeze after a long day.
without emotion, love is boiled down to much more subtle things. actions and words that cannot always be perceived unless much effort is exerted. while this love may feel more real and seem much more genuine during these times it is expressed; the times it isn't can feel much more devoid. the lack of pleasure can become so overpowering without enough of the good to balance it out.
maybe i'm just too needy, though. maybe i have too low of confidence and i need to hear that i matter.
it feels more real than ever. but the absence of expression can get excruciatingly painful.
without emotion, love is boiled down to much more subtle things. actions and words that cannot always be perceived unless much effort is exerted. while this love may feel more real and seem much more genuine during these times it is expressed; the times it isn't can feel much more devoid. the lack of pleasure can become so overpowering without enough of the good to balance it out.
maybe i'm just too needy, though. maybe i have too low of confidence and i need to hear that i matter.
it feels more real than ever. but the absence of expression can get excruciatingly painful.