Welcome to a new era of my life...kind of...
This has been an interesting semester for me. The faculty here is amazing and I have many Christian friends. I'm involved in my church, I have my own "veranda" and I'm still not paying for laundry (kind of...but the lack of quarters still amazes me). All of this being said, I have been struggling with my academic program, not the contents, but the effects. I eat, live, sleep and breathe early development in attempt to have a knowledge base that makes up for the fact that I am a blind preschool teacher. Every time I enter a preschool classroom, however, I am reminded of the fact that no one else thinks like me in this regard (go figure). It all just makes me tired in every sense of the word, especially emotionally tired. It's enormously frustrating as well. So what is that setting myself up for? At least 4 years to make it through the early child development with thespecial ed minor, draining myself for the purposes of evaluation. After graduation, I'd spend my life's energies fighting to gain employment. If I get really really good, I might score a job teaching preschool. Teaching preschool was my goal entering this program, but living with this treadmill effect just isn't worth it. That's the bottom line. As I write this, I am done being frustrated; I'm not sad and I have no regrets.
Over the last week, I have received some needed advisement from people I trust, familial and otherwise. I have been encouraged, validated and hav received the support from everyone I have talked to. Next semester, I will begin my path to certification in choral music education, where I likely should have been the whole time. I am excited: children and singing are... friends of mine. It will be a ton of work as I have a new language to master, but I can study and actually get somewhere. Overall, I'm feeling relieved. I have a lot to do, but I don't feel stuck. I hate being stuck.
I thought about making a new journal for my "new era" but I won't. This is partially because I am rather intolerant of technological annoyingness and partly because it's all connected in reality, so it can just be connected here too.
Anyway, that's the news here. I must sleep soon as I have the "monster quiz" in public speaking in the morning...right...
Niente Senza Gioia!
Over the last week, I have received some needed advisement from people I trust, familial and otherwise. I have been encouraged, validated and hav received the support from everyone I have talked to. Next semester, I will begin my path to certification in choral music education, where I likely should have been the whole time. I am excited: children and singing are... friends of mine. It will be a ton of work as I have a new language to master, but I can study and actually get somewhere. Overall, I'm feeling relieved. I have a lot to do, but I don't feel stuck. I hate being stuck.
I thought about making a new journal for my "new era" but I won't. This is partially because I am rather intolerant of technological annoyingness and partly because it's all connected in reality, so it can just be connected here too.
Anyway, that's the news here. I must sleep soon as I have the "monster quiz" in public speaking in the morning...right...
Niente Senza Gioia!