Life and the way I see it
Heya,
I don't know why but I find it harder and harder to write in my Livejournal. More or less lately I've been feeling really alone and like no one cares, and maybe they don't. My brother doesn't stop to see me despite giving him free room and board all summer, most of my friends don't call, stop by, or even associate with me often anymore, and quite frankly I find lifes dull as hell at the moment. WoW is pretty boring anymore, its winter so I can't really go anywhere, I'm saving money so I can't go out and do much... plus, as I said, where are my friends at?
Sure, I have Mari and Dave who try and talk to me... when I'm within sight. I guess out of sight out of mind is true. And Ian will talk to me when I start the conversation. But where is everyone else? Its sad when I think on my life and feel I havent made any really "lasting" relationships. Well theres Charles and Dave, whom I still love with all my heart, but aside that whom else? I do stop at the dorms on occasion but who I stop to see is never really interested, so I wind up hanging with other people. It really bites to be honest.
I love my friends, all of them, for who they are. Sure, at times I get pissed at them, but shit they're supposed to be there for me as I am for them. But it never really seems they are there for me anymore unless it benefits them to some degree.
Well with that I'll leave you with a song that very much fits my mood.
Repeat Offender - Trapt
Where so I turn I'm always questioning my sanity
Will I ever learn I have always stolen my identity
Will anyone forgive, Will anyone forget
I don't want a life without respect
I feel there is nowhere I fit
I am a repeat offender
I will live with this forever
I am a repeat offender
You have my word there are only lies in my sincerity
I live in a world that gives no meaning to integrity
Someone take these handcuffs off my wrists and break the chains of habit
I don't want a life without respect
I feel there is nowhere I fit
I don't know why but I find it harder and harder to write in my Livejournal. More or less lately I've been feeling really alone and like no one cares, and maybe they don't. My brother doesn't stop to see me despite giving him free room and board all summer, most of my friends don't call, stop by, or even associate with me often anymore, and quite frankly I find lifes dull as hell at the moment. WoW is pretty boring anymore, its winter so I can't really go anywhere, I'm saving money so I can't go out and do much... plus, as I said, where are my friends at?
Sure, I have Mari and Dave who try and talk to me... when I'm within sight. I guess out of sight out of mind is true. And Ian will talk to me when I start the conversation. But where is everyone else? Its sad when I think on my life and feel I havent made any really "lasting" relationships. Well theres Charles and Dave, whom I still love with all my heart, but aside that whom else? I do stop at the dorms on occasion but who I stop to see is never really interested, so I wind up hanging with other people. It really bites to be honest.
I love my friends, all of them, for who they are. Sure, at times I get pissed at them, but shit they're supposed to be there for me as I am for them. But it never really seems they are there for me anymore unless it benefits them to some degree.
Well with that I'll leave you with a song that very much fits my mood.
Repeat Offender - Trapt
Where so I turn I'm always questioning my sanity
Will I ever learn I have always stolen my identity
Will anyone forgive, Will anyone forget
I don't want a life without respect
I feel there is nowhere I fit
I am a repeat offender
I will live with this forever
I am a repeat offender
You have my word there are only lies in my sincerity
I live in a world that gives no meaning to integrity
Someone take these handcuffs off my wrists and break the chains of habit
I don't want a life without respect
I feel there is nowhere I fit