not very specific..
I'm in this cycle. This circle. This figure-eight. No matter how I feel, no matter how I change, no matter how I try, I somehow end up back where I was. Where I began. Where I didn't want to be. Or at least, didn't mind at the moment, but didn't want to stay. I want to keep improving. I want to keep getting better. Or I at least want to remain static. The same. Always. No ups, no downs. No roller-coaster ride of hell. I'm tired of getting to a peak. A plateu. I'm tired of getting there and lowering. Falling. Sinking. Just to repeat it all over again.