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why does everything come so easily to certain people? why are some people so smart, so gorgeous, so funny, just so generally lucky while others have to work for what they recieve. Its crazy how life isnt fair. And no one knows for sure if there ever really is that compensation. People have their beliefs, but i feel lost.
i havent updated for a while, my computer fried itself.
Its been a weird christmas. Sort of a reality check christmas so much that the whole magical element of christmas evaporated away. I was just left with money problems and calculations. Ive had a lack of energy to deal with things such as, being with people that im normally so intimidated by. its a weird thought. When people find that out about me, they are normally so surprised. And ive found that i dont like these people because of this vibe i get from them. Thats really unfair to them, but i dont know how to help it. Maybe its jelousy. Its really weird. I went onto myspace, and see people that just are so fond of eachother, and im constantly comparing, measuring myself up, thinking that im less of a good person because they arent showing anything for me. ?
is weird how we work subconciously.
i havent updated for a while, my computer fried itself.
Its been a weird christmas. Sort of a reality check christmas so much that the whole magical element of christmas evaporated away. I was just left with money problems and calculations. Ive had a lack of energy to deal with things such as, being with people that im normally so intimidated by. its a weird thought. When people find that out about me, they are normally so surprised. And ive found that i dont like these people because of this vibe i get from them. Thats really unfair to them, but i dont know how to help it. Maybe its jelousy. Its really weird. I went onto myspace, and see people that just are so fond of eachother, and im constantly comparing, measuring myself up, thinking that im less of a good person because they arent showing anything for me. ?
is weird how we work subconciously.