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i'm feeling foggy, lethargic, and contemplative. however, i am able to feel at all right now because i broke down and went to urgent care to get a shot in the ass to make this poison ivy (oh yeah, did i not mention that i've had this ALL over my body for the last couple weeks???) finally subside. now....prednizone.....ewww steriods. but, i tried EVERYTHING natural first and I had to draw the line when it emerged in my groin. oh HELL NO! that was terrible.
last night was a bad night, just a lot on my plate right now and trying to figure everything out is difficult. my car is gone, leaving me with no ability to take the kids out anywhere OR go to work. i'm nervous as to where that will leave me. i'll survive, tom is working everyday.....but I don't like losing control of my situation.
the kids hung out with me inside today. I felt bad, but coudn't put on pants or a bra because of the raw skin from the ivy hell, so i hung out in panties and a t-shirt. i had to explain to them that mommy wasn't being weird, but was letting her skin heal for a day. tomorrow though, i'm putting on proper clothes and heading outside for a bike ride/walk (i don't have a bike right now) with them around the neighborhood. if we're lucky? we'll make it up the hill to the cool park. kiaran may have to push. ;)
so many thoughts......i thought i'd be able to sit down here tonite and process some of this, but.....i can't. it's all coming out at once and my brain is shifting gears so fast, it's hard to keep up. so....i will fold the rest of the laundry on my couch, enjoy a beer and then collapse in bed.
last night was a bad night, just a lot on my plate right now and trying to figure everything out is difficult. my car is gone, leaving me with no ability to take the kids out anywhere OR go to work. i'm nervous as to where that will leave me. i'll survive, tom is working everyday.....but I don't like losing control of my situation.
the kids hung out with me inside today. I felt bad, but coudn't put on pants or a bra because of the raw skin from the ivy hell, so i hung out in panties and a t-shirt. i had to explain to them that mommy wasn't being weird, but was letting her skin heal for a day. tomorrow though, i'm putting on proper clothes and heading outside for a bike ride/walk (i don't have a bike right now) with them around the neighborhood. if we're lucky? we'll make it up the hill to the cool park. kiaran may have to push. ;)
so many thoughts......i thought i'd be able to sit down here tonite and process some of this, but.....i can't. it's all coming out at once and my brain is shifting gears so fast, it's hard to keep up. so....i will fold the rest of the laundry on my couch, enjoy a beer and then collapse in bed.