Comments | zenius: Not even death.

zenius

Not even death.

Jul 16, 2004 23:27

Heh... today has not been a good day mentally. Being without her is alot like dreaming. Everything just begins to blur and nothing seems solid, stable, or even real. As though I just pass from one inevitably empty moment to another waiting for that annoying clock to shock me into consciousness. Dreams are ultimately unsatisfying because you always ( Read more... )

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unavoidablefate July 17 2004, 03:58:34 UTC

always the dreamer, my friend...

Dream to Make-Beleive... negathus July 18 2004, 00:17:01 UTC

Dreams can be relaxing, remember that.. but just be careful not to forget what's important to you... Dreams can easily become nightmares, eh?

Re: Dream to Make-Beleive... zenius July 18 2004, 00:21:54 UTC

eh... dream, nightmare... doesn't really matter... they are not real.

Re: Dream to Make-Beleive... negathus July 18 2004, 00:22:36 UTC

Let's all hope so.

azrael_the_dark July 18 2004, 23:37:09 UTC

someone once said that dreams are just alternate futures shown to you, hehe, if thats the case i got some messed up future :p anyhow yeah dreams are evil they way they can feel so real and memorable when they are taking place yet in an instant they become the most unreal thing around and fade from memory. Bastards.... I want to live in my dream world forever....

paelle July 18 2004, 23:59:49 UTC

She's not even there and you're still whipped like a puppy.

Its a real shame that your life centers around only one thing now, and friends have been forgotten. I think you need to take off the blinders and look around babe.

Ahh how sweet of you to say... zenius July 19 2004, 10:35:57 UTC

Oh my god you're right how could I have been so blind? I mean you and I used to hang outside of school ALL the time. You used to always want to hang out with me... I remember all the calls you made to me and all the comforting you did when I was so depressed I couldn't sleep at night and I didn't want to be alone... when my mind was so filled with thoughts I stopped existing in reality... yep good ol' Nat always was there for me... oh wait.. no... that wasn't you. My true friends have and will always be there for me... and most understand how things are and believe me when I tell them things... the others just accept that things have changed a bit but at least note that I have some happiness now. I don't need friends that make my life a drama. I'm done with that high school bullshit. So please... get over yourself. I thought maybe you had moved past this, so I was wrong. Its sad ( ... )

Re: Ahh how sweet of you to say... paelle July 19 2004, 13:17:04 UTC

Oh thats fucking hilarious Ren. High school bullshit? Please. I was simply saying that you don't seem to see anything else around you. You know, it was great fun to talk to the side of your head at that wedding. And you say ~I~ am starting drama? I didn't tell you to fuck off or that you were full of shit in that post. You know, I told you I was home when you first complained about her leaving, and did I see you at all over the 2 1/2 weeks I was home?

And yes Ren, I DO know what its like to be that close to someone. I've had that for 3 years and 2 months now, but do I visit Havasu and just sulk about how much I miss him? Did my life become some blur during the 2 years we were separated? Don't think so.

Maybe I'm more bothered by this than others because I'm only there about 5 times a year now. But jesus Ren, I didn't know you get such a fucking stick up your ass about it. Was it really worth ripping my head off? Do you often tell people who consider themselves your friends and who care about you to go fuck off?

Re: Ahh how sweet of you to say... zenius July 19 2004, 22:24:47 UTC

first off... never told you to fuck off. I simply dont appreciate the only time I ever hear from you to be chastising me about either not knowing the moment you got back into town or that I pay more attention to Bri than anyone else. But you are right you did complain that I didn't contact you... and thats why I am generally reluctant to contact you... all you seem to do is complain. But whatever.

Oh yeah. How's Rachel? did you even tell her you were back in town? you know your "best friend"? No, I know you didn't because I have spoken to her since you have been in town.

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Where are you Ren? azrael_the_dark October 3 2004, 01:22:33 UTC

The hanging out with you has been missed, and no D&D has been played in a long time, its just not the same. On an interesting Note, i got hired at Burger King, and McDonalds on the Same Day, now the question, where to work :p ANyhow hope that you are well, call me sometime, hopefully i shall be home than