Not even death.

[zenius]

Heh... today has not been a good day mentally. Being without her is alot like dreaming. Everything just begins to blur and nothing seems solid, stable, or even real. As though I just pass from one inevitably empty moment to another waiting for that annoying clock to shock me into consciousness. Dreams are ultimately unsatisfying because you always wake up... and they are never more than dreams... no matter how nice or peaceful or amazing the dream was... it will never be the reality you wake up in. I want to wake up... and when I do... she better be walking off a plane and into my arms.

I read to far into things and make myself feel worse... I would like to take this moment to apologize to myself.