been a while
My knee is getting steadily worse. I injured it skiing the weekend of 12/28, and its getting worse. My health insurance was a mess, and I cried a bunch about it yesterday when I was at work (embarassing!!!) because I missed the application deadline for this other insurance company by 3 days to get coverage for May 1st. I was holding off on seeing a Dr. until my new health insurance, but that's not really an option anymore. Also my current health insurance has "open enrollment" which means I can finally drop it, but they just told me that none of those changes take effect until June 1st anyway, which means that I can't get health insurance through domestic partner benefits with my fiance.... god damn. So, I'm stuck with my current insurance until June 1st, and then I have a different insurance company for the month of June (when I won't be working) and then i start a new job in July and change insurance again.
I finally made an appointment to see a doctor about my knee this Tuesday. I can't even really walk around at all. I can't carry anything. I used to take these little afternoon walks from my cubicle at work to go around the lake down the street, and I can't do that anymore. All I've done moving wise today is get up and drive to work, and sit in my cube, and went out to lunch with co workers, and came back to my cube. I've taken ibuprofen 400mg every 4 hours, and my knee feels warm, tingly, slightly swollen and just plain sore. I can't seem to find a comfortable position to put it in.
This is infinitely frustrating for someone who was used to running 3x a week for 6-7 miles, and then climbing. And then hiking on the weekends... and I want to go backpacking up to Macchu Picchu this June, and I can't now, because of this damn injury. The only two weeks I have in a very long time for vacation is this coming June, and I can't fucking move. Gah! I've never had any injuries before... never a broken finger, never a sprain... nothing. Except this, and it sucks.
In other news, going back and forth with my mental awareness of food and intake. Trying really really really hard not to succumb to my desire to want to stop eating food in order to lose weight and not gain from lack of motility... but that hinders healing, and I want to heal as well and as quickly as I possibly can. So, I eat pretty sensibly.. a typical day:
Breakfast: Luna Bar, 180 calories, green tea
Lunch: Salad with veggies and some sort of protein.. ~300 cals
Dinner: (usually with fiance) some sort of fish and salad and veggies. ~400 cals
sometimes a little dessert... small bowl of ice cream, or a piece of chocolate, or some fruit ~200 cals
total = ~1080
So yeah, that's a typical day for me, give or take. I realized recently that I'm allergic to gluten.. I start to break out in a rash on my hands and blister when I have bread or noodles or a cookie, sometimes with rice too. It sort of sucks, but at the same time I avoid most carbs anyway... My favorite though is really nice grainy whole grain bread... with sunflower seeds and everything. But its ok, I guess I can live without it... I need to get allergy tested, so I might as well do that at my appt this Tuesday (gluten allergies can be tested through blood).
In other news, Brendan (fiance) and I went ring shopping over the weekend, and we saw some pretty things. Still taking our time though, which is nice. I also had to spend all of Sunday taking a practice MCAT exam (boo!! it was like 70 out and sunny on 4/20 weekend...) before dragging my ass to work on Monday. I did better than my diagnostic by about 8 points, which is a pretty solid improvement seeing that the exam is only out of 45 points total. And no one in the past 2 or 3 years of administrations has gotten a 43, 44, or 45. Out of 70,000 test takers, only 200 scored a 40, 41, or 42 combined. Eeeeep!
In other news, my knee still fucking hurts. God damn. >.< Whaaaaa!!!!