At least I can knit
Hello, long time, no post. There's a lot going on and yet nothing at all - some of it was good (a visit from a friend, Harry Potter), and a lot of it was bad (ankle still giving me a lot of painful grief, a new boss who is horrible, some very bad news about my mom's health, some frustration with one of my closest friends, trying to decide what to do about my future and not having any good ideas whatsoever, and going through a very long creative dry spell). Seriously, this year has been biblical in terms of crappiness. But at least I can knit pretty socks!
(please be impressed because clearly the kitty is not!)
You can tell that my right leg is still a lot smaller than my left. I'm still working on building up muscles and strengthening it. Most weeks I don't see any results and I feel a great deal of arthritic pain after walking for about twenty minutes. I walk with a cane, but my ankle will suddenly give out on uneven surfaces. I think I'm having trouble with the plate that held the fracture.
But despite it all, I'm still trying to remind myself that it's not that bad, it could be a lot worse, and things will get better someday, hopefully. I'm going to try to make it a goal to start meditating again this week - maybe it will help with the awful helplessness I've been feeling lately. I was enduring a long therapy session with my holistic bodyworker the other day and she said that I had a bit of the 'mystic' in me. I know I did once - I felt a really strong, deep connection with the world around me, with the energy of the universe, and with people too. Now I just feel like I've been shut up in a dark closet and I'm just trying to find the door.
By the way, thanks everyone, for the sweet comments you left in my last post. I keep trying to respond to each comment and I know I haven't been too successful. But really, I read everyone's comments and I appreciate them so much.
(please be impressed because clearly the kitty is not!)
You can tell that my right leg is still a lot smaller than my left. I'm still working on building up muscles and strengthening it. Most weeks I don't see any results and I feel a great deal of arthritic pain after walking for about twenty minutes. I walk with a cane, but my ankle will suddenly give out on uneven surfaces. I think I'm having trouble with the plate that held the fracture.
But despite it all, I'm still trying to remind myself that it's not that bad, it could be a lot worse, and things will get better someday, hopefully. I'm going to try to make it a goal to start meditating again this week - maybe it will help with the awful helplessness I've been feeling lately. I was enduring a long therapy session with my holistic bodyworker the other day and she said that I had a bit of the 'mystic' in me. I know I did once - I felt a really strong, deep connection with the world around me, with the energy of the universe, and with people too. Now I just feel like I've been shut up in a dark closet and I'm just trying to find the door.
By the way, thanks everyone, for the sweet comments you left in my last post. I keep trying to respond to each comment and I know I haven't been too successful. But really, I read everyone's comments and I appreciate them so much.