Yay for summer!
Ok, since the last time I wrote, lots of really great things have happened. I gave a recital for my family and friends, which wasn't the greatest, but showed improvement, which is all one can hope for. I gave a wonderful audition for Opera Columbus, which I should hear back about any day now. I hope to get into their opera chorus for the opening of the new zoo exhibits in mid July. My friend Deanna and I are planning a recital together, and we started rehearsing like mad, and things are coming together. I am singing Shephard on the Rock (Schubert, who randomly reminds me of Lisa every time I hear his name) and an Aaron Copland piece called "As it fell upon a day". Beyond that, I graduated, and not just normal graduated, I graduated suma cum laude, with a 3.97 GPA. Given what has happened this year, I am fairly proud of myself and I could not have asked for better. And, in two days, I will be on a plane to New Orleans for my roommates' wedding. I am UBER excited, although I think I would be much more so if I were travelling to Austria with my friends not soon after that. I guess there is always next year for a summer program, when I have more money.
One of my most pressing concerns is deciding what I should do about grad school. I am currently interested in both an MBA and a MM, but both take a certain amount of focus. I want to audition for music to see what happens, but I also think it would behoove me to get a degree in something I could use and make money with, to support this opera habit. Then travel on to get my DMA like I wanted, in opera directing. I guess I will just make a career out of school, and it will be all good. So by the time I am making real money singing, I can start paying back the millions of dollars in school loans that I have accrued during my undergrad - thus why my degree is called the $80,000 useless piece of paper. Ta-da!
Also of concern is my love life. I am always being an ass. Actually, yesterday, while I was weeding my patio (which took a total of 2 hours due to the overgrowth between the stones), I was thinking about myself and how I relate to men. I find that with most guys, I just live the life I want and I don't tell them anything unless they ask. I should share certain things of importance, but I don't. I avoid conversations that could allow them to tell me they dislike or wish me to change some part of myself in order to get something I want, because I don't think I should have to change. But most of all, I was thinking about how the only person I am comfortable talking about everything with is my ex-boyfriend from CT, Matt. I tell him all the sordid details of my life, down to every feeling and action, and he has become the most interesting friend. I am pretty sure he is gay, but it marks a real step forward with me, having a male friend with whom I can speak freely and honestly, without pretense or trying to be someone I am not. And its cool that all of me, all of my actions, my feelings, my thoughts, can be ok with someone - that someone doesn't judge me harshly for them. Even my friends can sometimes be too judgemental, although I know its for my own good and saftey, but sometimes you need someone who is just going to tell you what you are doing is fine for this moment, but soon you will grow out of it and become the beautiful butterfly you want to be.
I wish I knew what to do with myself. I am growing up faster than I have time to, if that makes any sense. I am going to be mad lonely without my girls for the remainder of the summer, but much will be wonderful when my Wendy gets back from Cancun. And I will hang out with Matty (my friend here), because he is lonely and missing his brother and I am lonely and missing my friends. Perhaps take a trip or two.
Biggest news: I have lost a total of 30 lbs since March 4th. I weighed myself today and I guess the altered eating plan and extra working out is doing the job. I don't care so much about the numbers, but I would like to be almost out of the jeans that are sitting in my closet too small for me by the end of the summer. We will see how that goes, because I think that means an extra 30 lbs. I need to loose it - no if, ands or buts. Haha, butts...
Hope everyone is having an enjoyable summer!
One of my most pressing concerns is deciding what I should do about grad school. I am currently interested in both an MBA and a MM, but both take a certain amount of focus. I want to audition for music to see what happens, but I also think it would behoove me to get a degree in something I could use and make money with, to support this opera habit. Then travel on to get my DMA like I wanted, in opera directing. I guess I will just make a career out of school, and it will be all good. So by the time I am making real money singing, I can start paying back the millions of dollars in school loans that I have accrued during my undergrad - thus why my degree is called the $80,000 useless piece of paper. Ta-da!
Also of concern is my love life. I am always being an ass. Actually, yesterday, while I was weeding my patio (which took a total of 2 hours due to the overgrowth between the stones), I was thinking about myself and how I relate to men. I find that with most guys, I just live the life I want and I don't tell them anything unless they ask. I should share certain things of importance, but I don't. I avoid conversations that could allow them to tell me they dislike or wish me to change some part of myself in order to get something I want, because I don't think I should have to change. But most of all, I was thinking about how the only person I am comfortable talking about everything with is my ex-boyfriend from CT, Matt. I tell him all the sordid details of my life, down to every feeling and action, and he has become the most interesting friend. I am pretty sure he is gay, but it marks a real step forward with me, having a male friend with whom I can speak freely and honestly, without pretense or trying to be someone I am not. And its cool that all of me, all of my actions, my feelings, my thoughts, can be ok with someone - that someone doesn't judge me harshly for them. Even my friends can sometimes be too judgemental, although I know its for my own good and saftey, but sometimes you need someone who is just going to tell you what you are doing is fine for this moment, but soon you will grow out of it and become the beautiful butterfly you want to be.
I wish I knew what to do with myself. I am growing up faster than I have time to, if that makes any sense. I am going to be mad lonely without my girls for the remainder of the summer, but much will be wonderful when my Wendy gets back from Cancun. And I will hang out with Matty (my friend here), because he is lonely and missing his brother and I am lonely and missing my friends. Perhaps take a trip or two.
Biggest news: I have lost a total of 30 lbs since March 4th. I weighed myself today and I guess the altered eating plan and extra working out is doing the job. I don't care so much about the numbers, but I would like to be almost out of the jeans that are sitting in my closet too small for me by the end of the summer. We will see how that goes, because I think that means an extra 30 lbs. I need to loose it - no if, ands or buts. Haha, butts...
Hope everyone is having an enjoyable summer!