Worried.

[zeldavitch]

Well Dad goes to the hospital tomorrow for a few days. I may of not been clear as what he's going in for. He's going for an evaluation of a new medication to help rhythm his heart back to normal. He has a built in defibulator in his chest sort of like a pace maker. They're going to try and regulate his heartbeat with the defibulator. He has to do this all while being awake in the OR. I can't even comprehend how much terror he's going to face. I'm just so numb. He has been on a buying binge buying everyone what we want just incase he doesn't come home. My sister and bro doesn't see it as that. They're too young. Yet mom and I know. Bro and Sis thinks its cool and exciting they're getting new stuff. I think differently. I mean yeah he got something for me too a camera but thats it. I don't know. I worry too much about everything. Just hope things are going to go smoothly. I wonder how I'm going to handle work on saturday knowing where my Dad is. Just wish I had time to go out and get my mind off it you know? Wish I had someone I could talk to cause I'm sure this is going to pass by peoples LJ lol

edit: Im so fustrated with people right now lol Everyone is gone or away or non responsive. lol ah well..-sigh-