*holds pain in stomache....
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It has been....23 hours and 2 min since i broke up with Greg. Yes, I know, im an idiot. I went to see eric last night. He was funny. Until, he asked me, "Hey Sara, I know how Greg will probably feel about this whole thing, But what about you? I mean, You have spent EVERYDAY with him for the last 3 or 4 weeks, isnt that going to screw you up a little bit?" I thought about it for a second or two. Then I went home.
When I got home, I called Greg to see if he was ok. And he said he was. Im not so sure if that was the truth, but what do I know. After that, I went and talked to my mom and then i went downstairs and sat at the end of the stairs. I sat there, all night crying. It wasnt until around 3AM that I stopped for a few minuets and then started up again. Around 6, I went upstairs and asked if I could not go to school. My mom said it was ok. Then, I went and crashed on my bed, I stared at my pillow face down, for 4 more hours until my mom left. Now im just sitting here on the computer trying to figure out exactly what the hell is wrong with me.
Now I dont know alot at this point, but I will say what I know,
1)Im going to loose my best friend. And its going to hurt for a very long time.
2)My grades are going to start dropping and they will continue to do so until im in college, where i wont have so much worry and drama.
3)Im going to become more silent, because when I talk, I make things worse and i hurt people.
4)Im going to drown myself in books and video games so that I wont have to deal with reality.
Im sorry.
It has been....23 hours and 2 min since i broke up with Greg. Yes, I know, im an idiot. I went to see eric last night. He was funny. Until, he asked me, "Hey Sara, I know how Greg will probably feel about this whole thing, But what about you? I mean, You have spent EVERYDAY with him for the last 3 or 4 weeks, isnt that going to screw you up a little bit?" I thought about it for a second or two. Then I went home.
When I got home, I called Greg to see if he was ok. And he said he was. Im not so sure if that was the truth, but what do I know. After that, I went and talked to my mom and then i went downstairs and sat at the end of the stairs. I sat there, all night crying. It wasnt until around 3AM that I stopped for a few minuets and then started up again. Around 6, I went upstairs and asked if I could not go to school. My mom said it was ok. Then, I went and crashed on my bed, I stared at my pillow face down, for 4 more hours until my mom left. Now im just sitting here on the computer trying to figure out exactly what the hell is wrong with me.
Now I dont know alot at this point, but I will say what I know,
1)Im going to loose my best friend. And its going to hurt for a very long time.
2)My grades are going to start dropping and they will continue to do so until im in college, where i wont have so much worry and drama.
3)Im going to become more silent, because when I talk, I make things worse and i hurt people.
4)Im going to drown myself in books and video games so that I wont have to deal with reality.
Im sorry.