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Author's Notes on "Gravity"
I told people at the exchange that I would share the story behind my fic, because I find it terribly amusing. Here it is, with a few metric ton of my own thoughts following. It's entirely too long, hence why it is in a separate post.
If you don't want to see me overthinking my own fic, skip the second part. XD
Well. I've actually been waiting quite anxiously for reveals so that I could post this.
It started about in August, really. That was when I first saw last year's Kanjani8 calendar. On one page, Hina and Ohkura were standing next to each other. They weren't actually doing anything. They were just standing there. Nothing slashy.
But they were hot. They were hot in the same picture. You know. The hair. And the sexy.
Well, that was enough for me to IM a friend about it for a laugh.
...She said I had to write it. (THANKS, JEN.)
I toyed around with the idea for quite, quite some time.
This fic's predecessor is a two page Word document. Entirely Ohkura's POV. I hate it, now, but I tried to make it work. The characterization, I think, was terribly far off. We got this silly idea that Ohkura had to be an absolute slut, simply because he's one of the "quiet ones". So... I wrote it. The beginning still kills me. Looking back, it's so wrong. I think we spent three days brainstorming among a group of my friends as to how Ohkura was going to get Hina on the floor...
Yeah.
Re-reading it just now... Think Cinemax, okay?
I gave up. It was just not working.
I still wanted to write the pairing, though. The hot is compelling.
Between then and the assignments for je_holiday, I read up on a lot more Kanjani8 stuff. I tend to throw myself into things that I like, and this was no exception. Articles, shows, J-webs, anything I could get my hands on.
We got our assignments. I was actually going to write KAT-TUN for feigningsleep, but it hit me one day that the best way for me to express myself--and therefore give her the best gift I possibly could--would be through doing a member-ai fic.
The POV shifted from Ohkura to Hina, and it works so much better.
And so, the labor of love that is "Gravity" was written. It took the entirety of the given time, was betaed in sections by at least six of my dear friends, endured many rewrites (a rarity for me, as I tend to be lazy)... I even printed it out at one point and edited it with a pencil, then wrote two more paragraphs while sitting there... In a bubble bath. Because I'm special. XD
It's not smut, and it's not rabu-rabu or what have you. It just kind of is... what it is. And that's why it was fun.
...But I wanted it to be hot, anyway. I hope I didn't fail at that.
Oh, and the funniest part, to me, was my filename:
Ohkura-Hina that doesn't suck.doc
...Imagine my surprise when, after the concept jumped into my head, we got a whole island's worth of material. Seriously.
Mostly just ramblings of my own thoughts here... The story is over. XD These are primarily for my own reference, put in a place where I won't lose them. Feel free to read if you'd like to know how I feel about the end result. But don't think I'm pretentious, 'kay? I'm just always thinking.
I agonized over how I wrote the two, often having to put it aside for a few days just to plot out the next steps in my head but keep them in line with how I see their personalities.
To me, really, the essence of the fic is that member-ai. The two are comfortable, natural. Things are deliberately slow, the paragraphs are deliberately long, the style is deliberately plodding and dense. I wanted it to feel sleepy, hazy, instinctual and evolving at the same time. It's more about the space between them that is closed by friendship than it is about the fact that it's almost-smut. I took out lines upon lines of emphasis on that, actually, once I figured out that maybe, just maybe, it didn't need it.
I appreciate greatly those people who commented letting me know that I succeeded, in some small fashion.
This is the longest piece of fanfiction I have ever written, and is surpassed in word count only by my Japanese history and gender essays (I usually write drabbles). It's also completely different from anything I have ever written, and in that way I'm very, very proud of the result. Taking chances lets us expand, even if we can only do it once, and this was a magnificent learning experience for me. I'm very grateful, as a rather unseasoned fic writer, to have been given a chance like this.
It's imperfect, of course, but it has been immensely satisfying.
For feigningsleep who basically said "I guess..." to K8 fic in her request... Well, I hope I gave you something that shares how I feel about them. You enjoying it made my holiday season that much brighter. Nothing is better than giving someone an extra smile.
If you enjoy it, please pass it along to someone. The pairing is strange, but I think the theme is universal.
And, as told to a few people, two sequels written in the same style but with different people are already in the works. Please keep your eye out for them, if you'd like.
If you don't want to see me overthinking my own fic, skip the second part. XD
Well. I've actually been waiting quite anxiously for reveals so that I could post this.
It started about in August, really. That was when I first saw last year's Kanjani8 calendar. On one page, Hina and Ohkura were standing next to each other. They weren't actually doing anything. They were just standing there. Nothing slashy.
But they were hot. They were hot in the same picture. You know. The hair. And the sexy.
Well, that was enough for me to IM a friend about it for a laugh.
...She said I had to write it. (THANKS, JEN.)
I toyed around with the idea for quite, quite some time.
This fic's predecessor is a two page Word document. Entirely Ohkura's POV. I hate it, now, but I tried to make it work. The characterization, I think, was terribly far off. We got this silly idea that Ohkura had to be an absolute slut, simply because he's one of the "quiet ones". So... I wrote it. The beginning still kills me. Looking back, it's so wrong. I think we spent three days brainstorming among a group of my friends as to how Ohkura was going to get Hina on the floor...
Yeah.
Re-reading it just now... Think Cinemax, okay?
I gave up. It was just not working.
I still wanted to write the pairing, though. The hot is compelling.
Between then and the assignments for je_holiday, I read up on a lot more Kanjani8 stuff. I tend to throw myself into things that I like, and this was no exception. Articles, shows, J-webs, anything I could get my hands on.
We got our assignments. I was actually going to write KAT-TUN for feigningsleep, but it hit me one day that the best way for me to express myself--and therefore give her the best gift I possibly could--would be through doing a member-ai fic.
The POV shifted from Ohkura to Hina, and it works so much better.
And so, the labor of love that is "Gravity" was written. It took the entirety of the given time, was betaed in sections by at least six of my dear friends, endured many rewrites (a rarity for me, as I tend to be lazy)... I even printed it out at one point and edited it with a pencil, then wrote two more paragraphs while sitting there... In a bubble bath. Because I'm special. XD
It's not smut, and it's not rabu-rabu or what have you. It just kind of is... what it is. And that's why it was fun.
...But I wanted it to be hot, anyway. I hope I didn't fail at that.
Oh, and the funniest part, to me, was my filename:
Ohkura-Hina that doesn't suck.doc
...Imagine my surprise when, after the concept jumped into my head, we got a whole island's worth of material. Seriously.
Mostly just ramblings of my own thoughts here... The story is over. XD These are primarily for my own reference, put in a place where I won't lose them. Feel free to read if you'd like to know how I feel about the end result. But don't think I'm pretentious, 'kay? I'm just always thinking.
I agonized over how I wrote the two, often having to put it aside for a few days just to plot out the next steps in my head but keep them in line with how I see their personalities.
To me, really, the essence of the fic is that member-ai. The two are comfortable, natural. Things are deliberately slow, the paragraphs are deliberately long, the style is deliberately plodding and dense. I wanted it to feel sleepy, hazy, instinctual and evolving at the same time. It's more about the space between them that is closed by friendship than it is about the fact that it's almost-smut. I took out lines upon lines of emphasis on that, actually, once I figured out that maybe, just maybe, it didn't need it.
I appreciate greatly those people who commented letting me know that I succeeded, in some small fashion.
This is the longest piece of fanfiction I have ever written, and is surpassed in word count only by my Japanese history and gender essays (I usually write drabbles). It's also completely different from anything I have ever written, and in that way I'm very, very proud of the result. Taking chances lets us expand, even if we can only do it once, and this was a magnificent learning experience for me. I'm very grateful, as a rather unseasoned fic writer, to have been given a chance like this.
It's imperfect, of course, but it has been immensely satisfying.
For feigningsleep who basically said "I guess..." to K8 fic in her request... Well, I hope I gave you something that shares how I feel about them. You enjoying it made my holiday season that much brighter. Nothing is better than giving someone an extra smile.
If you enjoy it, please pass it along to someone. The pairing is strange, but I think the theme is universal.
And, as told to a few people, two sequels written in the same style but with different people are already in the works. Please keep your eye out for them, if you'd like.