Come Clean
MAn it is so crunch time in such a tangible way. Like..the AIR is different in my dorm. My brain is on edge, Im definately going *crazy*...abcolute lunacy. Lately ive just bee ridiculous. A mess...i swear I need someone to scoop me off the floor and put me back in valerie shaped container.
Finished my Asians in the US project. That was soem seriosu brain fuckage. I mean, I wanted to do soemthing *different*. For a few reasons..well, because 1, Im *me* and i liek to do weird shit, 2 i didnt want to write *another* paper ( i did one for the midterm) and well, this professor has just kept me on edge all semester, and made me feel like a *terrible* TERRIBLE horrible white perosn all semester, so I wanted to be all ASSHOLE IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK I AM....okay, I *am* a terribel white person, btu for different ereaons MEANiE >.< And yeah... so I tried. I mean, I tried to make it amusing, and funny and abstratc, and still trya dn convey the rtelatioship and stuff. And you kno what, if tis racist its NOT MY FAULT. Most if not all of this happened, or was said by people, or written or found somehwere. So...argh >.< That was very upsettign for me to do because then I felt like a terrible person, and like my work was aweful >.< And now, I sort of really like what I did, after susan and my professor liked it. But so far they're really the only ones..im gettign like, wildly different reactions from everyone...which is suppose is good. I mean..it has to be like...good that it makes peolple think..thats usually the way good artr wortks, but i still feel terirble, but whatver, im proiud of what i drew anyway. Its SATIRE, its an abstraction. And I like satire. So oh well Im a horrible person -.-
Dropped by friends' goign away party last night for an hour or too XD They're headed back to Louisiana in a week, never to return T_T Thats the only reaosjn I took time away from my precious crucnch time T_T btu it was fun. i got there really late, so like eveyrone was already really smashed ^^ Which is good, because then people turn into me ^^ I met some people's boyfriends and scared them. lol, my italian friend's boyfriend was like really pissed at me. He hadnbt met me before, and everytone was all "Wheres Val, Wheres Val?" and he was all "who the hell is this girl? And why is she taking so long ?? -.- i bet shes goign to stnad you up. shes a terribel friend" and then i showed up, and my friend introduced me to him, and now he thinks im liek the best person ever XD AHAHAH~ My cute vibes ate whatever bad thoughts he had XD HEeh I'm a "solid friend" XDDD ~ Finished my biomed paper. 20 pages *bitches*. but im still goign to gvet like, a C. -.- ARH. So..things i have left to do
Monday: Japanese Final
Tuesday: Philosophy Final, Philosophy Paper, Art Final
Wednesday: Lit Final
And then I am free at last XD
And now a meme i stole from my 5 yr old grandniece, aka ketsune ^^
Go through your archive, and take the first line of each post of each month (excludign memes):
January: First off, Happy New Year people
February: These are my classes and why they are evil
March: "Without Contraries, There Is No Progression"
April: Okay, been awhile, but i was lettign time go by just in case my 18th century-ness would keep going, but..ALACK..it died ^_^
May: Today I went to the Midmanhattan Library.
June: Hello goslings, Lady Val here.
July: AAGH, JUST AAGH
August: Not much has transpired.
September: YAAAyyyy~ I love my classes...NO. I *HEART* THEM. TO PIECES.
October: Yay T_T
November: Went to my gyno again today -.-
December: So...um..life is not looking pretty at the moment.
Its supposed to be a retrospect thing. BNut, liek ketsune, i will have my own version of things:
January: Yay seeing people!
February: OMG back to school fun!
March: OMG BLAKE-SAMA!!! and PAHHSUKKII~~~ <3 and my world is changed FOREVER.
April: 18th century romp; and 18thc entury pron -- why hello there moll, pamela, evelina and all you other delightful ladies that brightened up my semester. Even you tristam shandy, you ASS >.< Also, props to freak hall skills! The Lady Valerie of Valencia sends her Best wishes to all her Compatriots ^^
May: FINALS *AAGH*..and, whats this, SURPRISE! UTERUS!!?!?
June: Livign in Queens and Art 101, in which my professors decide I am their favorite person ever XD "OMG YOU LIKE ART HISTORY?!? ~cling~"
July: Livign in Queens, massive strife with family. LAck of Yaoi. LAck of Friends. No lack of discharge. -.-
August: Otakon! Being shy >.< Moving back to the city, THANK YOU GOD.
September: Yay! Class! ...and continuing vaginal problems
October: ....oh look my academic skillz have DIED. And so has my mental fortitude...and apparently so has my vagina >.>
November: Midterms and Surgery! XD And beign a WOMAN and cryign all over the place.
December: Healing and Finals. And Falling apart.
This has not been a good year -.- I blame my vagina. that bitch. I mena..the 1st four months of the year were so fun T_T Lets hope I can keep my vagina free of problems. This was a TERRIBLE past ..several months. Not to be repeated *ever*
I am currently listening to a Hilary Duff song >.> WTF mates, why do I like this song so much? Whatever. Also been quite taken lately with an Evanescence song, "Away From Me". ugh. im so girly lately. Please stab me in the face. It all needs to end. I really..i need a break. I need to go caroling with freak hall, and see brokeback moutnain with susan and maybe narnia too...I need to go hang with helen and intergumi, i need to molest people, i need to go ntving with my nephew and miece and grandniece and assorted other aweosme flushign peeps. I just...argh. I need this all to STOP. So i can just break down and cry. Not like I *havent* been doign that, like all the time lately...y'know, Im really nto much of a crier, or at least i wasnt after i was 14, and bfore this whole abscess thing. Lets hope I can return to being chill...i miss the way i was >.<
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
Finished my Asians in the US project. That was soem seriosu brain fuckage. I mean, I wanted to do soemthing *different*. For a few reasons..well, because 1, Im *me* and i liek to do weird shit, 2 i didnt want to write *another* paper ( i did one for the midterm) and well, this professor has just kept me on edge all semester, and made me feel like a *terrible* TERRIBLE horrible white perosn all semester, so I wanted to be all ASSHOLE IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK I AM....okay, I *am* a terribel white person, btu for different ereaons MEANiE >.< And yeah... so I tried. I mean, I tried to make it amusing, and funny and abstratc, and still trya dn convey the rtelatioship and stuff. And you kno what, if tis racist its NOT MY FAULT. Most if not all of this happened, or was said by people, or written or found somehwere. So...argh >.< That was very upsettign for me to do because then I felt like a terrible person, and like my work was aweful >.< And now, I sort of really like what I did, after susan and my professor liked it. But so far they're really the only ones..im gettign like, wildly different reactions from everyone...which is suppose is good. I mean..it has to be like...good that it makes peolple think..thats usually the way good artr wortks, but i still feel terirble, but whatver, im proiud of what i drew anyway. Its SATIRE, its an abstraction. And I like satire. So oh well Im a horrible person -.-
Dropped by friends' goign away party last night for an hour or too XD They're headed back to Louisiana in a week, never to return T_T Thats the only reaosjn I took time away from my precious crucnch time T_T btu it was fun. i got there really late, so like eveyrone was already really smashed ^^ Which is good, because then people turn into me ^^ I met some people's boyfriends and scared them. lol, my italian friend's boyfriend was like really pissed at me. He hadnbt met me before, and everytone was all "Wheres Val, Wheres Val?" and he was all "who the hell is this girl? And why is she taking so long ?? -.- i bet shes goign to stnad you up. shes a terribel friend" and then i showed up, and my friend introduced me to him, and now he thinks im liek the best person ever XD AHAHAH~ My cute vibes ate whatever bad thoughts he had XD HEeh I'm a "solid friend" XDDD ~ Finished my biomed paper. 20 pages *bitches*. but im still goign to gvet like, a C. -.- ARH. So..things i have left to do
Monday: Japanese Final
Tuesday: Philosophy Final, Philosophy Paper, Art Final
Wednesday: Lit Final
And then I am free at last XD
And now a meme i stole from my 5 yr old grandniece, aka ketsune ^^
Go through your archive, and take the first line of each post of each month (excludign memes):
January: First off, Happy New Year people
February: These are my classes and why they are evil
March: "Without Contraries, There Is No Progression"
April: Okay, been awhile, but i was lettign time go by just in case my 18th century-ness would keep going, but..ALACK..it died ^_^
May: Today I went to the Midmanhattan Library.
June: Hello goslings, Lady Val here.
July: AAGH, JUST AAGH
August: Not much has transpired.
September: YAAAyyyy~ I love my classes...NO. I *HEART* THEM. TO PIECES.
October: Yay T_T
November: Went to my gyno again today -.-
December: So...um..life is not looking pretty at the moment.
Its supposed to be a retrospect thing. BNut, liek ketsune, i will have my own version of things:
January: Yay seeing people!
February: OMG back to school fun!
March: OMG BLAKE-SAMA!!! and PAHHSUKKII~~~ <3 and my world is changed FOREVER.
April: 18th century romp; and 18thc entury pron -- why hello there moll, pamela, evelina and all you other delightful ladies that brightened up my semester. Even you tristam shandy, you ASS >.< Also, props to freak hall skills! The Lady Valerie of Valencia sends her Best wishes to all her Compatriots ^^
May: FINALS *AAGH*..and, whats this, SURPRISE! UTERUS!!?!?
June: Livign in Queens and Art 101, in which my professors decide I am their favorite person ever XD "OMG YOU LIKE ART HISTORY?!? ~cling~"
July: Livign in Queens, massive strife with family. LAck of Yaoi. LAck of Friends. No lack of discharge. -.-
August: Otakon! Being shy >.< Moving back to the city, THANK YOU GOD.
September: Yay! Class! ...and continuing vaginal problems
October: ....oh look my academic skillz have DIED. And so has my mental fortitude...and apparently so has my vagina >.>
November: Midterms and Surgery! XD And beign a WOMAN and cryign all over the place.
December: Healing and Finals. And Falling apart.
This has not been a good year -.- I blame my vagina. that bitch. I mena..the 1st four months of the year were so fun T_T Lets hope I can keep my vagina free of problems. This was a TERRIBLE past ..several months. Not to be repeated *ever*
I am currently listening to a Hilary Duff song >.> WTF mates, why do I like this song so much? Whatever. Also been quite taken lately with an Evanescence song, "Away From Me". ugh. im so girly lately. Please stab me in the face. It all needs to end. I really..i need a break. I need to go caroling with freak hall, and see brokeback moutnain with susan and maybe narnia too...I need to go hang with helen and intergumi, i need to molest people, i need to go ntving with my nephew and miece and grandniece and assorted other aweosme flushign peeps. I just...argh. I need this all to STOP. So i can just break down and cry. Not like I *havent* been doign that, like all the time lately...y'know, Im really nto much of a crier, or at least i wasnt after i was 14, and bfore this whole abscess thing. Lets hope I can return to being chill...i miss the way i was >.<
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean