On My Limping Progress
Progress:
Antony and Cleopatra Paper: 65% done
Ibsen Paper: 20% done
A&C i'm not as worried about, but wf IBSEN T_T I have...4 typed pages. I'm supposed to have TWELVE. gAAHhhhh. Die Bitchwhore >_< wtfwtf, its so WEIRD for me to have like..not enough material. Seriously >.>;;
Talking to people lately; feeling loved...wow, I actually spoke to all my nephews within the past...48 hours. ^^ Even random ass people have been calling me ^^ <3 <3<3 But, cant really do actual seeage til i VANQUiSH MINE ENEMY.
In other news, in reading, I've discovered that perhaps I'm trying to subliminally kill myself >.>; Now, that in itself is nothing new, but there's a new reason to add to the masochism. So, apparently, in the 19th century, the frail sickly pale pathetic woman was really really HOT. Hence womenz drinking vinegar and arsenic and corsetting themselves into oblivion.
But even *hotter* was the *dying* woman...actually. Lol, I'm too hearty and robust and low class for people. Am I trying to kill myself through work to attain that oh so desirable weakness? Hmm, most certainly *not*. Well, on a conscious level. lol.
The top two qualities women are supposed to possess are masochism and passivity. Qualities seen as tragic in men, but desirable in women (well how *else* are you going to trick them into servility?) I mean, okay, I'm masochistic, im passive >.>;; Why do i not count? Oh WAIT, because women arent supposed to have pride. Whoops, that one slipped by me ^^;; Silly me, i forgot I'm supposed to be a selfless dying angel in the house. Having a personal agenda gets in the ways of my selfless devotion to some guy my parents married me too because he had money. MY BAD xD
of course, boys, dont let your feathers get ruffled too much. I can see you all being "this was over a hundred years ago, val...women can *vote* and own property now you crazy nut you >.>" I think the reason I harp on this so much is because this time period, and previous notions of femininity continually inform people's perceptions of what women *should* be. And as I'm all about being exactly what is expected, these are not really things I'm keen on >.>;;;
So I bitch bitch bitch about them >.>;; i mean, for example, this society's obsession with deathly skinny women -- tell me thats a new thing and not somehow descended from the Victorian obsession with dying women who needed to be looked after and wholely dependent on men~ Why do selfish women *have* to be evil? Why is it so abhorrent that a women be self aware?
again, this is probably why I crazily model my behavior after my perception of men as a weird fucked up means of enfranchising myself so i dont end up like my mother ~shudder~ of course, the rub is, its always those exact women that men find desirable so AgH. I dont want to be a lesbian T_T Where the fuck is a Krogstad when i need him -___- Though, I mean all these things, I find them hot too. I have to agree with Edgar Allen Poe on that point. How could I *not* when I clearly think psychotically thin jrockers who keep getting hospitalized are really hot? Blaugh.
And now lets end with a quote from Rousseau: "The whole education of women ought to be relative to men. To please them, to be useful to them, to make themselves loved and honored by them...and to make life sweet and agreeable to them -- these are the duties of women at all times"
and clearly brilliant logic from ben-oi-kun: "i prefer being wanted to being needed". I can think of no better argument for women being awesome. Because if they're too stupid or weak, and they actually *need* you to survive, then isnt that just using you? Do they *really* love you? Probably not. So yes. xD Ben is a very smart little nephew-kins. ~squishes~
Antony and Cleopatra Paper: 65% done
Ibsen Paper: 20% done
A&C i'm not as worried about, but wf IBSEN T_T I have...4 typed pages. I'm supposed to have TWELVE. gAAHhhhh. Die Bitchwhore >_< wtfwtf, its so WEIRD for me to have like..not enough material. Seriously >.>;;
Talking to people lately; feeling loved...wow, I actually spoke to all my nephews within the past...48 hours. ^^ Even random ass people have been calling me ^^ <3 <3<3 But, cant really do actual seeage til i VANQUiSH MINE ENEMY.
In other news, in reading, I've discovered that perhaps I'm trying to subliminally kill myself >.>; Now, that in itself is nothing new, but there's a new reason to add to the masochism. So, apparently, in the 19th century, the frail sickly pale pathetic woman was really really HOT. Hence womenz drinking vinegar and arsenic and corsetting themselves into oblivion.
But even *hotter* was the *dying* woman...actually. Lol, I'm too hearty and robust and low class for people. Am I trying to kill myself through work to attain that oh so desirable weakness? Hmm, most certainly *not*. Well, on a conscious level. lol.
The top two qualities women are supposed to possess are masochism and passivity. Qualities seen as tragic in men, but desirable in women (well how *else* are you going to trick them into servility?) I mean, okay, I'm masochistic, im passive >.>;; Why do i not count? Oh WAIT, because women arent supposed to have pride. Whoops, that one slipped by me ^^;; Silly me, i forgot I'm supposed to be a selfless dying angel in the house. Having a personal agenda gets in the ways of my selfless devotion to some guy my parents married me too because he had money. MY BAD xD
of course, boys, dont let your feathers get ruffled too much. I can see you all being "this was over a hundred years ago, val...women can *vote* and own property now you crazy nut you >.>" I think the reason I harp on this so much is because this time period, and previous notions of femininity continually inform people's perceptions of what women *should* be. And as I'm all about being exactly what is expected, these are not really things I'm keen on >.>;;;
So I bitch bitch bitch about them >.>;; i mean, for example, this society's obsession with deathly skinny women -- tell me thats a new thing and not somehow descended from the Victorian obsession with dying women who needed to be looked after and wholely dependent on men~ Why do selfish women *have* to be evil? Why is it so abhorrent that a women be self aware?
again, this is probably why I crazily model my behavior after my perception of men as a weird fucked up means of enfranchising myself so i dont end up like my mother ~shudder~ of course, the rub is, its always those exact women that men find desirable so AgH. I dont want to be a lesbian T_T Where the fuck is a Krogstad when i need him -___- Though, I mean all these things, I find them hot too. I have to agree with Edgar Allen Poe on that point. How could I *not* when I clearly think psychotically thin jrockers who keep getting hospitalized are really hot? Blaugh.
And now lets end with a quote from Rousseau: "The whole education of women ought to be relative to men. To please them, to be useful to them, to make themselves loved and honored by them...and to make life sweet and agreeable to them -- these are the duties of women at all times"
and clearly brilliant logic from ben-oi-kun: "i prefer being wanted to being needed". I can think of no better argument for women being awesome. Because if they're too stupid or weak, and they actually *need* you to survive, then isnt that just using you? Do they *really* love you? Probably not. So yes. xD Ben is a very smart little nephew-kins. ~squishes~