Jun 07, 2004 22:05
Okay - this post will be a rant... be forewarned.
It turns out that one of the girls in the last post, called me tonight to tell me that she had been raped over the past weekend. I don't have any reason not to believe her- and I really don't care if it's a lie anyway. I had fucked and took this girl's virginity last week, and it's odd that the very next she would be raped. Besides the logic stacked up against her claim - I am done with her. I want nothing to do with a tainted bitch. This fucking sickens me and disgusts me, and I'm tired of hearing it. I can add her to the list of 10 other girls I've fucked that have said the same thing (though to them, it had happened prior to our engagement) - why does this keep happening to me? Why do I keep attracting these scum? What am I, some sort of girls-who-have-been-raped magnet?
Do they look to me as their savior or something? Sure I'm a nice guy, but it ain't my fucking problem. It's your fault, you put yourself in that position, you let it happen - and I don't wanna fucking have anything to do with your nasty ass. Seriously, who in their right mind would want to be with her now? A desperate motherfucker, but I'm not a desperate motherfucker. I have no compassion for her, I don't care how much she cried, why should I suffer for it? Why should I endure HER hardships? I liked this girl alot, I tend to have lots of feelings for any girl I devirginize, because I think that they are in some way pure and innocent - well this is not the case for her now, so back into the recycling bin she goes. I don't like used or recycled goods. I want something that is brand new, smells fresh, and is fucking clean. I don't settle for anything less, and I refuse to put up with any more of this bullshit.
Am I afflicted with some sort of curse? What have I done, that is so sinful, that is so evil, that I keep encountering these... these... bloodsuckers? I live a moral and just life, I have repented for all my sins, so what have I done to deserve this? Can I find a fucking bitch that is smart, pure, virgin, and beautiful? The combination of these traits is so rare... I doubt it'll ever happen, and my misery will only continue.
On that note, another notorious bloodsucker called me today, my ex-girlfriend, and she's giving me the hint that she wants to get back together. Sorry, can't do that either slut, you've already been fucking around with other guys (I'm a hypocrite in this sense) and I don't want to have anything to do with your stupid, lying, can't-follow-a-fucking-order ass as well. Oh, and guess what, she was raped too - so was the first girl I was ever with, the second (in addition to many others), and the only "good" girl I can find that I'm talking to now, was also raped. What's the fucking deal here? What is this shit? How fucking common can rape be, is it underreported, unpunished, or are these bitches lying for attention? Well, the only fucking attention you'll get from me is negative - this means no compassion and sympathy for YOUR problems, because I'm sick of this shit and sick of feeling sorry for these hoes. FUCK 'EM!