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Right now I am hyper-sensitive to everything, espically my own emotions. Maybe I really did break the other night. Why else would the world seem so new and irrationally scary, and yet so incredably beautiful at the same time? I'm on the verge of tears for the silliest reasons - or no reason at all, as far as I can see. Yet usually it's with a smile. I've been confused all day, trying to understand all of this. It just occured to me it dosen't matter. I feel what I feel, and then I act as I decide. This sensitivity can be a gift if I want it to be one. It hurts, and it's scary. I'm not going to fight it. It's been so long since the world has looked so beautiful. I wish I could share just a single instant with everyone, so they would know the incredable depth of this feeling. It's the closest I can ever get to having a second chance at life. That is absolutely amazing. I'm at a loss for words.