A Quick update to tell among others
Hey all, just a quick post since I got permission from my friend's blog on a different website. I look at this and it makes 1 wonder (like me) How some people can do it. I'm glad she is my cool friend and all but this definate raises her bars since I know a bit more than before. So She says its ok for me to post this. This is from a friend named Katey (I'll be removing one of the pics along with some info that was posted for protection reasons).
Enough with the babbling.
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This song was posted in a bulletin and it made me thank God that I left that day we went. For those of you who dont know what I am talking about, when Aaron and I found out I was pregnant, we decided to go to Planned Parenthood to have the medical abortion (not the surgery). I thought that all it was was a pill. After we got there, I was reading the papers and everything sunk in. I knew it was against what I believe & I wrote my thoughts on a piece of paper:
"2-6-04"
"I try so hard to convince myself that what Im doing is right, but that's hard. I am only doing this for Aarons benefit. I really dont want to be here. I want to go home. I cant do this. Ill never foget or forgive myself. I am once again messing up what I believe in. I already did *twice. I am a disgrace. I wish there was some way to get out of this."
Aaron saw me writing so he wanted to see. I gave him the paper. He didnt say anything and handed it back. Then I wrote on the back, "Please I want to go out of here. I cant do this." All he said was you have to. I then wrote, "We can find a way to get through it can we please go?" He didnt answer me. Not too long after that, I heard my name. I went into the room and the woman took one look at me and said, "You dont look like you want to be here." Then, I just broke down crying. I told her no. She said all she would do today was an ultrasound and I could get my money back and think it over. Then I could call her and come back if I changed my mind. So I walked out of the room. Got Aarons $300 and handed it to him. He asked "whats going on?" I told him "we are going home. They told me they couldnt do t." Which is the truth, I didnt want to so they werent going to make me. The WHOLE drive home (1 1/2 hours) he didnt talk to me. I just sat in his car and cried and cried. We got to my house and I blew up at him. I screamed at him and thats the day we started going downhill. Anyway, I walked out of there and I am DAMN glad I did. 7 months later I had this beautiful boy:
Dominic
September 17, 2004
5:47
7 lbs
20 1/2 inches
And I dont regret anything that happened that day. I should have known Aaron wasnt fit to be a father tho. That episode should have told me. But hey, look at me now.
Im a Happy single Mom. I may have times when I am upset and sad about things but I have a good place to live and good support here. Just thought Id share!
"I have the best of him"
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Anyway, so yea, I hope you enjoyed.
Any if you wanna see my real entry...
So I've been enjoying myself with the exception of worrying about my friend yesterday. She had an asthma problem in which I stayed with them til they got out the hospital. Let me say that was a fricken long wait (especially since she was fine by the time she was waiting for the doctor to call her to the back). Anyway, but besides that, I didn't mind being with her because of it. Reguardless, I am at home, tired because of my lack of sleep that I've had because of everything that happened. Anyway, I guess I hope to make another post soon!
Until next time!
Enough with the babbling.
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This song was posted in a bulletin and it made me thank God that I left that day we went. For those of you who dont know what I am talking about, when Aaron and I found out I was pregnant, we decided to go to Planned Parenthood to have the medical abortion (not the surgery). I thought that all it was was a pill. After we got there, I was reading the papers and everything sunk in. I knew it was against what I believe & I wrote my thoughts on a piece of paper:
"2-6-04"
"I try so hard to convince myself that what Im doing is right, but that's hard. I am only doing this for Aarons benefit. I really dont want to be here. I want to go home. I cant do this. Ill never foget or forgive myself. I am once again messing up what I believe in. I already did *twice. I am a disgrace. I wish there was some way to get out of this."
Aaron saw me writing so he wanted to see. I gave him the paper. He didnt say anything and handed it back. Then I wrote on the back, "Please I want to go out of here. I cant do this." All he said was you have to. I then wrote, "We can find a way to get through it can we please go?" He didnt answer me. Not too long after that, I heard my name. I went into the room and the woman took one look at me and said, "You dont look like you want to be here." Then, I just broke down crying. I told her no. She said all she would do today was an ultrasound and I could get my money back and think it over. Then I could call her and come back if I changed my mind. So I walked out of the room. Got Aarons $300 and handed it to him. He asked "whats going on?" I told him "we are going home. They told me they couldnt do t." Which is the truth, I didnt want to so they werent going to make me. The WHOLE drive home (1 1/2 hours) he didnt talk to me. I just sat in his car and cried and cried. We got to my house and I blew up at him. I screamed at him and thats the day we started going downhill. Anyway, I walked out of there and I am DAMN glad I did. 7 months later I had this beautiful boy:
Dominic
September 17, 2004
5:47
7 lbs
20 1/2 inches
And I dont regret anything that happened that day. I should have known Aaron wasnt fit to be a father tho. That episode should have told me. But hey, look at me now.
Im a Happy single Mom. I may have times when I am upset and sad about things but I have a good place to live and good support here. Just thought Id share!
"I have the best of him"
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Anyway, so yea, I hope you enjoyed.
Any if you wanna see my real entry...
So I've been enjoying myself with the exception of worrying about my friend yesterday. She had an asthma problem in which I stayed with them til they got out the hospital. Let me say that was a fricken long wait (especially since she was fine by the time she was waiting for the doctor to call her to the back). Anyway, but besides that, I didn't mind being with her because of it. Reguardless, I am at home, tired because of my lack of sleep that I've had because of everything that happened. Anyway, I guess I hope to make another post soon!
Until next time!