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Hey guys :| I could use some assistance.
I have TERRIBLE sleep hygiene. I really do. I'm in bed a different time every night, sometimes at 4 or 5 in the morning. I can't keep that up, because sleep is important and I end up not having the energy to do, well, anything, but I have boatloads of commitments.
I slept through my TWO alarms today. I'm scared I may have lost this job because I've done this before. I called in as soon as I woke up, but obviously my boss wasn't happy. We still talked about what work needs to be done in the next two weeks, but I expect that when I come in, I'm gonna be sat down for a talk.
I'm not totally broken up over the possibility (this is the job I've been complaining about for so long, but it paid the bills :/), just upset and angry at myself, but at the same time, lacking the commitment to stick to a healthier sleeping pattern. It's not that I CAN'T sleep, it's more that I don't WANT to. I might feel tired around 1 AM, but I'll choose to stay up because I'm playing a game, or reading something, or working on something, or talking to someone, and I'll just not want to stop and go to bed.
This is true even if I've had four hours of sleep the previous night, because I'll get absorbed in something and the feeling of being sleepy goes away. I pay for it the next day, and I might get better sleep for a couple of days because my body finally says "I've had it" but then I just go right back to my old habits.
What do I DO? I'm at a loss, because it seems like just saying "uh, just go to fucking bed" would be easy, but I railroad over myself all the time without even thinking about it. That little voice saying "uh, you should sleep" just never registers. The actual biological demand to sleep isn't strong enough, and anyway it only kicks in around 4 AM or when I've reached some sort of sleep debt limit and hallucinate on my drive home.
That's another thing. Driving home while sleep deprived is kind of scary.
I don't know, what do you guys do to just... call a stop to things for the day and go sleep? I thought about seeing a doctor about this, I just don't really... want to, because my health care is nonexistent.
I have TERRIBLE sleep hygiene. I really do. I'm in bed a different time every night, sometimes at 4 or 5 in the morning. I can't keep that up, because sleep is important and I end up not having the energy to do, well, anything, but I have boatloads of commitments.
I slept through my TWO alarms today. I'm scared I may have lost this job because I've done this before. I called in as soon as I woke up, but obviously my boss wasn't happy. We still talked about what work needs to be done in the next two weeks, but I expect that when I come in, I'm gonna be sat down for a talk.
I'm not totally broken up over the possibility (this is the job I've been complaining about for so long, but it paid the bills :/), just upset and angry at myself, but at the same time, lacking the commitment to stick to a healthier sleeping pattern. It's not that I CAN'T sleep, it's more that I don't WANT to. I might feel tired around 1 AM, but I'll choose to stay up because I'm playing a game, or reading something, or working on something, or talking to someone, and I'll just not want to stop and go to bed.
This is true even if I've had four hours of sleep the previous night, because I'll get absorbed in something and the feeling of being sleepy goes away. I pay for it the next day, and I might get better sleep for a couple of days because my body finally says "I've had it" but then I just go right back to my old habits.
What do I DO? I'm at a loss, because it seems like just saying "uh, just go to fucking bed" would be easy, but I railroad over myself all the time without even thinking about it. That little voice saying "uh, you should sleep" just never registers. The actual biological demand to sleep isn't strong enough, and anyway it only kicks in around 4 AM or when I've reached some sort of sleep debt limit and hallucinate on my drive home.
That's another thing. Driving home while sleep deprived is kind of scary.
I don't know, what do you guys do to just... call a stop to things for the day and go sleep? I thought about seeing a doctor about this, I just don't really... want to, because my health care is nonexistent.