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I hate being sick. I've felt congested for days now and it's driving me nuts. I can feel myself start to freak out again. That gross sickly feeling that I don't know what to do. I could get a job now but I'd have to quit in june when I start my construction gig, but what am I to do for $$ til then? Well with ITT I have until Aug to enroll or else my loan people want their money back. well I know I'll get my degree in Electronics at least...but after that I'm not sure if I'm gonna be getting my full degee in IAET.
My dad mentioned that I should have gone to art school.
I don't even know where to begin with that. But I think the best way to answer that is: I didn't think I could make a living off art. Well I know thats bull, but thats kinda how I saw it, I want real world skills that I can use anywhere, and be able to use in everday life. Electronics is a huge field of study, and knowing the basics is a great start.
What about tattoos?
I've been looking into become an aprentice. but that also cost money, and may lead to a dead end. I love tattoos, I like getting them, I like talking about them, I like learning about different styles and the history of them, I like learning about symbolism from them, and I love designing them.
"I didn't think I could make a living off art." well I'm redtarded I guess. I think owning a tattoo parlor would be boss. I could kick people out for being dumb, I could get as many tats as I want, I could form life long bonds and friends. And I could also be in debt paying all that off for the rest of my life. I want to be happy in life, and I want to do something that i can be proud of and not struggle to get by. I don't want to struggle to make ends meet for my family. family. I want a family, house, kids, pets, all that.
I've felt like crap lately, the cold, the no job, and just generally felt like I'm stuck in a rut. I've been irritable too. I don't want to be like this. I'd like to just go out with Emily and have a nice night and just not feel like crap. I want to just know whts gonna happen next, and be prepared for it. I want this construction job to work out, and work out in spades, I want gas prices down, and I want to take Emily out and remind her that she's the only girl for me in ways beyond words. I want her to have a night that she'll hope that it'll never end. I want to be everything to her, everything that she is to me.
what about tagging?
Well I think I'm gonna keep working on stencils until I get a few that I really like and can be proud of, and tag the hell out of dubb El. there have been a few tags, nothing major, but all freehand, no stencil. I could start a buzz with this...and maybe not get caught?
I dunno I'm done.