Apr 17, 2007 09:29
I hate this shit.
I hate that, because of time zones, I wake up and the first bloody thing I hear in the morning is that some psychopath's gone on a shooting spree. Again.
I hate that I have to sit there and count fingers, to find out if I was still awake last night when it happened, and why the hell I hadn't seen anything about it if I was (time zone counts told me, because I went to bed early, I just missed the first part). I hate that I now feel BAD about going to bed early, and worse because I probably wouldn't have heard anything until this morning anyway if I'd stayed up, because I'd only have caught the most preliminary reports, if I'd been looking. I'm feeling bad about not giving myself nightmares, and I hate it!
People are scared. People are dead. People are in mourning.
I'm not going to be able to focus properly today, for a long while.