Goin' to work, details of ouch
Well, pain got tolerable after several hours, finally allowing me to sleep, but since it took so long I'm exhausted and have lost a lotta worktime. I gotta get going, and just hope that I get done in time. I find myself seriously doubting I can, both checks I have this week are way more huge than I'd previously thought. I keep being a little too optimistic and thinking the next check will be easier than they really are so I don't get too anxious about it, yet that just sets me up for a big fat uh-oh.
Jeez my jaw n teeth hurt from grinding my teeth so much. I can hardly eat; the hinges do a sensory overload when I taste food, it's really agonizing without actually being pain. This'll definitely be bad long-term too, will continue wounding the nerve under my teeth and eventually break the roots. I can't stop myself from doing it very well, cuz it's from my neck pain. I can't keep a grimace of pain permanently on my face, I can't bawl, I can't let loose an unbroken eternal "ooooouuuuch!". So either I clench my fists or grit my teeth. And the fists take too much energy, make my arms sore, and I often end up with wounds from my fingernails, short as I keep them. So it usually ends up being the jaw.
But oh, I don't need surgery or nerve blocks or even painkillers, I'm just fine, cuz the doctors said so. :/
Blah, quit complaining me, I gotta go work. I'll explain the rest of the situation later.
Jeez my jaw n teeth hurt from grinding my teeth so much. I can hardly eat; the hinges do a sensory overload when I taste food, it's really agonizing without actually being pain. This'll definitely be bad long-term too, will continue wounding the nerve under my teeth and eventually break the roots. I can't stop myself from doing it very well, cuz it's from my neck pain. I can't keep a grimace of pain permanently on my face, I can't bawl, I can't let loose an unbroken eternal "ooooouuuuch!". So either I clench my fists or grit my teeth. And the fists take too much energy, make my arms sore, and I often end up with wounds from my fingernails, short as I keep them. So it usually ends up being the jaw.
But oh, I don't need surgery or nerve blocks or even painkillers, I'm just fine, cuz the doctors said so. :/
Blah, quit complaining me, I gotta go work. I'll explain the rest of the situation later.